It’s my Brother’s birthday tomorrow. These firsts are so hard. It’s been 3 months since he passed. I struggled buying him a card. I’ve made flowers for his grave and we’ve got a plaque to place there with a photo of him on it.
My first nephew is due anytime. My Sister is in labour as I type this. So many mixed emotions right now, I don’t know whether I’m coming or going.
I’ve not been the easiest company the past few days. I feel angry and sad and now excited for my new Nephew.
It’s confusing and I don’t know how or where to put these emotions.
Some people tell me to sit with it but I find that condescending. It’s all so muddled. Sit with what? One minute I’m okay, the next I’m crying over a Milkyway I saw in a shop or a song on the radio. Or I’m angry at something I can’t put my finger on.
Is this what overwhelmed means?
Have you felt like this?
