The last thing my sister said to me was I’m sorry, 18 months before she took her own life. An apology I never accepted, her addiction took hold of her and I couldn’t bare it anymore. Regret mixed with grief is taking over my life, I’m like a shell of who I was. She was 10 years older than me and she was my muse, beautiful, funny and the majority of the time the most amazing loving, kind and generous person you’d ever meet but she turned into someone unrecognisable through the years. I’ve experienced grief before but losing my sister in such a complicated circumstance that no one else understands is so isolating and gut wrenching. Sorry for rambling I’m just heart broken and don’t think I will ever get over it
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Hello @skc ,
I’m so sorry to hear about your sister. It sounds as though things are very difficult at the moment and you are feeling heartbroken.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. You might already be familiar with our other Online Bereavement Support services, but if not, you can find out more about our Online Counselling service, our Grief Coach text support service, and our Grief Guide self-help tools by visiting the link.
Take care - keep reaching out,
Alex
Yes, it is understandably a very hard and lonely path for you. I hope you can talk to someone.
Look after yourself.
Kind regards
Sue