The loss of my brother who was 35

I lost my brother on the 18th december one week before christmas to addiction and mental health and i am really struggling to come to terms thats he gone, he put me and my mum through hell we tried so hard to get through to him but he slowly got worse and worse he spent 2 years in a mental hospital and when he came out he had told me he was going to sort himself out but he was on the drugs straight away, i feel i should have spent more time with him i always used to call him and tell him you can overcome it as i struggled myself and overcome with help, he never acceped help and never opened up and also he had sold his phone 10 days prior to his death so i didnt get chance to speak to him, i just cant get it out of my mind seeing him in the casket and what he had become he was having drug induced seizures also and i seen him after he had a seizure with all his face cut open it, it really cuts me up inside what he had become i pleaded with him to stop but i just couldnt get through, its really hard to come to terms with

Hello @kully ,

I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are struggling. I’m so sorry to hear about your dad and brother. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.

I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, you may wish to look at these Sue Ryder resources which might be helpful.

I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.

Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.

Take care,

Alex