To be honest the only bit of hope,i have left is that. I will be with my wife again seeing her smile, hearing her laugh walking hand in hand on her favourite beach.
Well, it’s the 60 million dollar question, isn’t it? I often talk to my son as if he was still around, and I’d love to think he could hear me, but maybe it’s just a mechanism that I have dreamed up to cope with the grief. The other problem I have is that what makes a person unique is not just their character, but their physical appearance as well. When their physical presence has gone,
a huge part of what they were has disappeared. So are they then just a soul, a ball of energy, which you can somehow communicate with? Do they stay as an individual entity or do they join with all the other people who have died to become one huge cloud of energy? And when we die, will we be able to locate them in that mass of energy? I so long to meet with my son again and I so desperately hope that will happen. But I also long to give my son a hug, and that would mean him having a physical presence again. I don’t know how that would work.
That’s how it is for me, I get caught up in the practicalities of it and how it would work and can’t get my head around it. Maybe we’re not meant to, but I too desperately hope.
To all on this subject. I lost my wife nearly 4 months now and still very raw going through all the emotions of guilt regret sadness yearning. It hurts so much. My only comfort is knowing she is not suffering now and in spirit she is health and can now see as she was blind when she passed. I too have had signs from her. We are both spiritual. For anyone who wishes to explore the subject i am presently reading a book LIFE AFTER LIFE by RAYMOND A MOODY. A massive best seller. Just a thought for you to make up your own mind. Sending you all hugs and peace on this journey.
I have bought that book too but haven’t read it yet, since Mark has gone I have been reading books on the spiritual world, after life and life after life.
I just want him to contact me or give me a sign, anything as I am not doing too good here without him.
I miss him everyday
I honestly think that if you truly believe then our loved ones are always with us. I am one of those that does.
Some people absolutely do not and that is fine but if you want the smallest bit of proof you have to open your mind and your broken heart…notice small things.
My John was a history buff with a degree and his fave time was Roman times. Me, I was never interested.
I had a particularly bad day a few weeks back on a Thursday which was four weeks to the day of his passing. I met an old friend for a meal which I couldn’t eat and I came home early in floods of tears.
I went upstairs to change and the television was on with a blue screen saying it was turning off in one minute. It did turn off whilst I was puzzling about it because I had not turned it on.
I decided I would then turn it back on and the programme that came up was Dig for Britain a thing I’d never watched but strangely it was about a farmer who had unearthed a Roman mosaic floor in his field so it was being excavated. My John loved the story of Achilles and this mosaic was in three parts depicting Achilles killing the son of some king…!!!
I can’t explain it but i just knew at that very moment John was with me and I know he is now so I also know he will be waiting for me when it’s my turn…
It’s just all about believing…
This totally depends on how each individual feels, for me I have always believed there is something more. To not believe is also a belief.
I lost my dad last year who was a non believer in anything beyond science. Since then I have had so many messages from him, one lady even said my dad’s name directly to me following some very accurate details. For me this is so so comforting when I have to face the rest of my life without him in the flesh
Lots of support from friends and family getting out as much as i can but still feel so alone inside and depressed ofren. Does anyone feel like this? 5 months after losing my wife.
