I lost my mum in October 2017 unexpectedly and was a total wreck.
I sort medical help as I was so depressed and not sleeping.
It suddenly hit me a couple of weeks ago that my mum would hate seeing what a state I have got myself into and realised how selfish I was being to my husband as he lost his dad last year too.
I came off the anti-depressants and now taking sleeping tablets to try and get into a sleep routine.
I am not saying I don’t get upset anymore as missing my mum will never change.
I do find that writing to her everyday about how my day has been has helped a lot.
I am at the stage where I am grateful for the last year we had together and the fact that she didn’t suffer.
So there is light at the end of a really dark and depressive tunnel.
It just takes time to get their.