We always told eachother every day, countless times a day I love you. But did i ever tell you that you were the best thing that ever happened to me. The best person that I have ever known . The only person that I have ever needed. You made my world brighter and brought love into my life. Without you it’s nothing but dark and empty. My love for you goes so deep to the very core of me. I don’t feel that any words I write or say can ever truly express just how much I love you pauline. I read something in a post the other day that hit home. It was sitting looking at four walls waiting for my time to come and that’s exactly what I’m doing. I know you wouldn’t want that, but I can’t help how I feel. You made my life worth living and completed me. I never saw my life withoutyou in it and I just don’t know who I am anymore, or how to go on withoutyou. I miss you more than I ever knew it was possible to miss someone. They say time heals , but I don’t see anything ever healing this pain. Maybe we just learn to exist alongside the heartbreak. You were the most beautiful loving kindest gentlest soul I have ever known or will ever know. My love for you will never die and I will always carry you with me. Two hearts and souls joined as one. It was an honour and a privilege and a pleasure to be your life partner and to love and be loved by you. I have to remind myself to stop just thinking of what I have lost and think of what I had and was lucky to have had a beautiful soulmate who loved me as much as I do her. I just wish we could have had longer together and that you were still here with me. I know you knew that I loved you more than life itself and that I would have given my life for you in an instant. I’m thankful that I had you in my life and I will always feel blessed for that. Be at peace my beautiful perfect Irish rose 
I will love you all my life xxxxx
Hello @Casey1.
That’s very beautiful and I’m sure your beautiful Irish Rose will know how much you still love her.
I write letters to my husband and have done so for the last five years, I keep them in a special place I have made for them. They’re only short and sometimes contain every day happenings but they always contain lots of love. I’m only telling you about what I do in case it inspires you to something similar. I find it helps a lot to write things down, just like we do here.
I don’t see why we can’t communicate/talk to our loved when even if they’re not still beside us.
Best wishes x
Such beautiful words Casey . It is the worst thing having to carry on without the person you love the most in the world . I am really struggling today , sending you hugs . Take care.
Love Angie xx
@Daisyrose hi daisyrose thankyou. I appreciate anything that might help. I do talk to pauline as if she was still here everyday. I find it helps posting on here how I feel. As well as reading other people’s post. I also write things down at home to pauline. Sending hugs x
@Angie4 hi angie thankyou. It really is the worst thing carrying on without the person you love most in the world and I feel for anyone who is having to do that. I’m sorry you are struggling today. You are welcome to message me anytime you want to chat. Take care sending you hugs. You are in my thoughts. Love casey x
Thank you Casey , very much appreciated , and you can message me anytime too . Take good care.
Love Angie xx
That is lovely Casey I feel the same about my husband
It’s is so hard for us all just help talking to you all we find life a struggle can get strength from each other some times it would just help if you could pick up phone and talk to some one but there is not really family friends would soon get fed up on you messing there day up on here it is ok we can stick together xx
Awwww, Pauline, another beautiful post for your precious Pauline. She knew the love you had for her (as she had for you) she knew that love transcends life itself. She honestly knew.
Stay safe in the knowledge that true love is everlasting, in this life and beyond. Hug your pets for your darling Pauline. Loads of love Casey, look after yourself my friend
Janey xx
So sorry Casey…(I know Pauline was your darling) didn’t mean to call you by her name. Forgive me xxxxxxx
@Rose45 hi Rose thankyou for your kind words. I am so very sorry for the loss of your husbend. At least on here we can help and support eachother sending hugs take carex.
@JaneyS hi janey thankyou for your lovely words. No need to be sorry and of course I forgive you. But there is nothing to forgive. You take care my friend love casey x
Dear Casey,
My beautiful, precious sister Margaret Rose also an Irish rose died last November. My wish is also that we had more time. She was the most important person in my life …take care x
@Ellen3 Dear Ellen I’m so sorry for the loss of your sister Margaret Rose. Life is so hard without those we love to share it with. My thoughts are with you on this heartbreaking journey. Take care sending love and hugs x
The last words my wife of 50 years spoke to my daughter an myself was you are all very good to me , i told her i loved her an my daughter said you are always good to us an we all love you after that Rebecca went to sleep an never woke up again.
Rebecca loved to take my daughter an her family out to dinner once or twice a month the last time we went out to dinner i told her she looked nice with what she was wearing . Rebecca could not eat a lot just getting out an seeing everyone else having a good meal made her happy.
Rebecca was 72 when she passed away we always had a family holiday when our children left home we went to Spain ,Greece USA an Mexico an few times so i have a lot of happy memories an no regrets about not travelling.
The last holiday we had planned was in 2019 sadly Rebecca took very ill an was in Hospital instead of Spain, Rebecca was never ever well enough to think about travelling after that period of 8 weeks in Hospital plus Covid came in an no one was going anywhere.
this year in Rebecca,s honour i am taking my family to Spain , won,t be same without Rebecca but she would be very happy to know her family is getting a holiday.
God Bless you All
Such beautiful words Casey, I can really relate to that.
Pete and I would say “I love you” multiple times a day, we were in awe of each other and as Pete died very suddenly and unexpectedly I am so glad that they were our last words to each other.
Your words have made me think about how lucky I was to have shared my life with such a special man,
It was 5 months yesterday sínce my heart was shattered, its so difficult to carry on without him.
Friends have told me they have never experienced a love like Pete and I had so I know I was blessed, I told him practically every day that he was perfect and he would always reply…,
I’m not perfect, I’m just me who loves you!
I will never get over losing him and will love him forever.
Muldool
@Muldool hi muldool thankyou I am so very sorry for your loss. Its so heartbreaking this horrendous journey. But I tell myself that I have to remember what I had and how wonderful it was and the years we had together. Not just the heartbreak we are going through. Its seems you and Pete were meant for eachother and had a fantastic relationship. Thankyou the reply Pete gave you I’m not perfect I’m just me who loves you, that made me smile. It was a year for me yesterday. I am so sorry you are going through this heartbreak. When you find a love like we had with our soulmates there is no other feeling like it, it’s beautiful and fulfilling and amazing. Take care sending love and hugs x
Hi Casey, I hope yesterday was as good as it could be for you, these anniversaries are really hard, it’s my birthday soon and shortly after that it will be 1 year since we moved into our home, we were so excited this time last year looking forward to a couple of big holidays and then settling in to our home to enjoy growing old together. I am just so sad that our future was wiped out in the blink of an eye.
I’m sitting here in our living room with tears streaming down my cheeks as I type. Why did this have to happen to us?
My sister and niece went home today after a couple of days with me and I feel so lonely, I keep looking at Petes pictures and just wish I could turn the clock back.
Some days I feel I can carry on but then other days like today I just wish this agony was over. I just don’t want to think about the future without Pete.
I know we are very lucky to have found our soulmate and I’m very grateful for that. I’m just really exhausted from putting on a brave face.
Sending love and hugs back
Muldool
@Muldool hi muldool all the anniversaries are so hard. When I had my birthday without her, it meant nothing it was just another day missing and longing for her and what we had. Life is so bloody cruel at times. I’m so sorry you are going through this heartbreak. I do understand how you feel. I have many days where I don’t want to be here anymore. But I keep going for my darling and our pets. Life isn’t the same without our lost loves. As for the brave face all you can do is the best you can and you don’t have to be brave let people see how you feel. I don’t think about the future as I just take one day at a time and to be honest for me there is no future without my love. I’m sorry I don’t have words of comfort. But I’m always willing to listen. Take care sending love and hugs x