Time seems so weird since you passed. Everyday drags and feels so long. Yet three years have passed already. I still talk to you everyday. Countless times a day. As though you were still here. I love you with all my heart and soul and i always will. I miss you so desperately. You made my life worth living. You made me a better person and showed me what real love is. I never knew it was possible to feel so empty and lost for so long. But that’s how i feel everyday since you died. In all honesty most of me died with you. Although I’m still here all i do us exist. I stopped living the day you died. Our furbabies help me so much and i still have love in my life because of them. They love me no matter how miserable i am. Losing you my darling has broken my heart and me. I have never known pain like this. Thank-you for loving me and always having faith in me . For believing in me and never giving up on me. You are the most beautifull loving kind gentle intelligent funny soul i have ever known. I have cried more in these 3 years than i have ever cried in my whole life. I used to be afraid to die. Not anymore though as when i do i will be reunited with you. I will love you all my life and cherish the love we share. Death may have separated us but nothing can ever take our love away. I hope I’m doing you proud. Be at peace my babe. I love you my sweet beautiful perfect Irish rose 
yours always xxxxx
Crazy isn’t it… 3 years.
Still remember us talking at the start of our grief journey, some days it feels only yesterday some it feels like decades ago.
I remember at the start how I loathed seeing couples happy, holding hands… I felt so jealous and bitter that I had lost that.
I know along the way we headed in different directions I was so lucky to come across another widow with a broken heart and we connected.
You on the other hand are just stuck in limbo in that darkness waiting for the day you and Pauline are reunited.
My heart goes out to you Casey it really does.
It is so hard because there is nothing I can say to lift that darkness from you. The only comfort is the pain you feel because that pain shows just how much that woman meant… Love like that lives on forever.
Three years for me too. I agree I’ll never be that same person I was when you were by my side. It’s a shame because I quite liked that person but now try to make the best of what life I have left. My children and grandchildren keep me going - without them I would have gone under. Where I’ve found the strength to carry on I’ll never know but know I must if only in his memory. Miss you darling, always will 
Georgie xx
It’s just over 3 years for me too. Tomorrow is our 46th wedding anniversary and I miss him every single day. It doesn’t get any easier.
Sending love Casey.
Debbie xx
Dear Casey, such beautiful words to Pauline, thinking of you, Pauline will be proud xxx