I only recently found this forum so I hope this doesnt seem silly.
I was extremely close to my grandparents, I am estranged from my parents and my grandparents, especially my grandad were my parental figures I suppose.
I lost my nan is 2020 but could not go to her funeral with COVID.
By grandad passed away the year after. Again COVID restricted the funeral attendance.
I miss them both so much it still seems to hurt as much as the day they passed away. Any thing that reminds me of them, I no longer feel able to do. I used to love writing fiction, my grandad would read everything and we would discuss it.
I thought it would get easier in time but it simply doesnt feel like it is. Reconciliation with my parents is not an option and my grandparents were the last of my family.
I just feel like I am rambling but if you have read, thank you, I appreciate it.
Cat, what a lovely relationship you had with your grandparents. My husband died about 11 weeks ago and our grandchildren were so upset. They wrote such lovely messages to him. I can understand why you feel their loss so much. Do you have friends or someone close? Your grandparents must have been lovely people they would want you to be happy.
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my grandparent too. It’s taken me a very long time to return to daily life again. It’s so hard to lose a grandparent when you had such a special bond with them. I feel like our grandparents love us unconditionally and I always remind myself I am lucky to have experienced such a loving and special relationship. I like to think that my Nan is still watching over me but at least now she has a chance to be reunited with her special people and I look forward to seeing her again.