My wish every day is for time to pass, for the days and weeks, months just move and add up. But I have this disconcerting feeling that time is standing still. The hours are endless. The days are dragging hour after hour. At times I find myself standing in the living room with his absence longing for his physical presence that is missing. I work from home and sometimes when I am concentrated doing a task, after I finish I think he’s sitting in the living room watching a movie. And time stands still. Not even three months. But it also feels like it’s been an eternity without him. What a confusing state of mind. Grief is too complicated…
Grief makes time do weird things. Some days pass in a blur and others take an eternity to get through.
For me time spent with others seems to go too fast and then time on my own is endless.
The comfort of having someone around, someone you can rely on, and someone who will just be there, is so underrated that when we lose them we don’t know what to do or how to cope.
I know that people say time heals. But that isn’t my experience, I am over a year since losing my wife, and time still does weird things.
I wish I had words of wisdom, but the only advice I have is to keep going, and don’t wish your life away.
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