Time is no healer !! 15 MTH now
since Babs passed away and still at a loss with myself no enthusiasm to do anything . I look after max 
feed and walk him that’s about all . Any body feel like this ???
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Hi Smee.
I agree time is no healer but I am only in very early stages. 22 weeks ago I lost my partner to a brain tumour. Bastard thing. 40 years together
I’ve just posted that I feel the rawness has eased and I’m not crying as much. But……….
I can’t imagine what life has to offer and do things on autopilot. There is no point anymore.
I guess I’m trying to say I so understand how you feel and really cant imagine a future without her. I just cant. So it’s day by day hour by hour. And yes I can’t imagine it being any different 15 months from now.
I just find reading that I’m not alone is truly helping me. I hope you do too. So many people on here able to articulate these awful feelings so well…….
Thank goodness for this group……. Take care of yourself Smee………
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my wife died suddenly 18 months ago .I get up i go to work i smile i laugh and chat and i know everyone thinks ive come to terms with it .Inside i am hollow ,theres literally nothing there i go to bed every night hoping i dont wake up i drive to work hoping i get hit by another car and put out of my misery . im 44 and the prospect of being alive for decades fills me with dread . I have 2 stepdaughter and 2 grand daughters and in truth i think if it wasnt for them id have just driven away and left everything behind . my point is that the life lived has to continue ,job ,bills eat sleep all that crap but its really a mirage of who i actually am now
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It’s been 5 months since I lost my darling to cancer.Some days are better than others but in the end my saddnes always wins.My old life has gone and I am going to try and make a new life in the UK.To be honest it doesn’t matter were I am I will be without the love of my life,so I feel i will never be happy again.Take care Derek.
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I understand . I cannot imagine going on without Bry . I’m trying my hardest to soldier on but in truth I’m existing , waiting my turn & really hope it damn well hurry’s up 
I’m 9 weeks in almost & it’s 9 weeks too long
Sending hugs xx
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…yip every day for the last 18 months 
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