It’s crazy a year end of July since mum was gone she died a horrific death of nhs negligence and sepsis caused by it, to which I witnessed almost all of it, day they did this was day she had been told her 4yr fight with bowel Cancer was done they said remission! She was so weak from that and strokes/ostioprosis they never should have done procedure .. only a psychopath would have ( if you’d seen her us agree) I was just getting back on feet at start of year when my maternal gran began to seem off colour so to speak, she made my 40 th end of may and died same date in July my mum did year before amazingly some family have blamed me for this saying my ill health stressed her and that’s why she had a heart attack .. I’m living day to day mot of this I stay in bed as I can’t face anything.. I’m either in floods of tears over all losses in past 7 years) I have 2 close family and a handful of cousins ) or I’m feeling nothing I don’t evn wanna do fave hobbies or tv. Recently they think my sis may have C so all testing has began due to sheer amount of blood in stool I just Duno what to do or where to look etc, my psychiatrist has refused to see me said I’m fine altho I suspect I may not be.
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It sounds like you’ve had such a difficult time @Beansjelly, I’m really sorry about your mum and your gran; that’s an awful lot to cope with.
Please do think about speaking to your psychiatrist or GP again if you’re struggling. You could also ask your GP specifically about bereavement counselling, which they should be able to refer to you or give you some information on accessing. You deserve care and support.
The Samaritans are always there too on 116 123 or jo@samaritans.org.
You’re not alone - keep reaching out.