Today 11 months ago, my beloved Philmore left me behind in this horrible world. I survived his birthday, his funeral, Easter, my birthday, our that would be our 16th wedding anniversary, Christmas, and New Year so far. Lots of tears and loneliness still no idea what to do with the rest of my life. But I still carry on. I accept that I am on my own but the feeling of loneliness is not so strong anymore. I still have problems with going to sleep - even with tablets or hot milk with honey and I am still so exhausted. I also lost interest in doing my favourite hobbies: reading or listening to music - nothing brings me any joy anymore. Is there any hope that it will get better? Sending love and hugs to everyone.
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I feel exactly the same @Annaessex i feel likeit is getting worse not better and at beginning i didnt feel the lonliness just the awful loss of him 
but i really do now … i feel so utterly alone in this awful world ! Christ its awful ! I truly hate what people have become ! Its just not nice at all … im having some work on my teeth done and then i think i will move end of year ! I really need to try and get away from this pain in my heart which feels like its getting worse by the day !
I just wanna find something that makes me feel better … I just cant find it ;( xx
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I also feel my grief is getting worse, 34 weeks later. Perhaps it just does, I don’t know, sometimes I can’t catch my breath with the awful pain. Good luck with your teeth, it’s something I’ ve been putting off. At least the sun is out today.
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Yeh i think i push myself too much tbh … im a bit silly really ! I do need to be kinder to myself and give myself a bliming break you know. Off around for a coffee with my neighbour in half an hour ! I think being stuck in in winter really does not help !!! And yeh sun out and im taking my dog to canal afterwards for a walk xx
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