Ditto 
. Hope you are all ok x
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And the same from me. Found the past few days quite hard as I’m sure we all have. The good weather etc. Just wish my Mum was here to chat and laugh with. Sending hugs to you all xxx
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Hi karen, Started back to work on phased return. Total disaster last week. People keep asking where ive been. Only 1 episode this week so much better. Its the coming home to an empty house after work and nobody to tell how your day gas been. Still extremeley hard. Developed pains in my chest, rhink its probably stress related. Hope your classes are behaving and things are umproving for you. Xx
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I spend late evening into the early morning looking at photos of our 40 years together I can’t stop crying and feel desperately unhappy. It’s the only way I have good memories. I knew she was ill for three Years and I cared for her 24/7 which I would do all over again. Since Christmas she deteriorated so quickly until she was in a coma at home. Me and my three daughters slept on the bedroom floor to be close to her for the last week until she passed away. I’m still in shock and can only think of the bad times during her illness. I want to get back the good memories again. Looking at the photos helps but I just wish I could turn the clock back and be with her again.
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Dear Gary @Gary123
I am so sorry for your loss. Its the worst pain ever that we carry. If only we had a rewind button. Nothing prepares you for this horror we now have to live through . And its not even living really, just existing.
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Thanks for your message Maigret. I’ve tried to blank it out tonight to have one normal evening but it’s not worked. I’m sat up in bed looking at photos of her again. Dreading Father’s Day , having to pretend I’m enjoying myself for the sake of my daughters, and I know their hurting as well.
Thinking of you all going through the same pain.
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Hi Bubba,
I hope being back at work is helping, I am finding it ehausting!
It will take time for us to settle back I’m sure.
Take each day, one day at a time, even each hour.
Lots of love Karen xxx
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If only we could find a way to cope with this pain. The ‘80ft waves’ that come and leave us drowning again & again & again
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That’s beautiful thank you for sharing Perth x
Thinking of you as you grief Perth x