Today is the first day I haven’t cried since my other half passed away 8 weeks ago tomorrow. I woke up this morning feeling calmer than I have done since he was diagnosed with bile duct cancer 7 weeks earlier. It has been a strange day feeling so calm after all these weeks. I know it probably won’t last and I will have days when I cry all day again but I am appreciating today. Ray hated it when I cried and used to say please don’t cry so I tried very hard not to when he was unwell.
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Im glad you’ve had a little bit of quiet today.
It’s exhausting to cry everyday, even though we can’t help when it happens…
My partner was also diagnosed with bile duct cancer. Although it’s rare, and very aggressive, it seems there’s a few of us on this site whose partners have had the same diagnosis!
Having dealt with that is exhausting in itself…
I wish you have a decent night’s rest ready for whatever the next day brings…
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Thank you, we had no idea there was anything wrong until he turned yellow, we had hoped surgery was possible but he had tumours in the lining of his abdomen. He had two surgeries to put stents in then he got home for our 52nd wedding anniversary and refused to go back into hospital so I looked after him at home. I hope you are finding some peace.
N was diagnosed in January 2021. He’d not felt well for a few weeks. At the first hint of jaundice our GP rushed him to hospital and a few weeks later he had a Whipples procedure.
We were really lucky, it was during covid and I couldn’t visit but he was home after a few weeks.
We had nearly 3 extra years, which is why I say ‘lucky’… and managed to fit in a lot of fun, but it wasn’t enough…
He’d been given the 2 year all clear in February last year, and at the end of August he had massive abscesses on his liver, constant iv antibiotics, stents, drains, bags, jaundice… it was hideous.
I’m glad he came home, as he wanted, but I miss him every day.
But like you, there are days with no tears, and there’s days with some fun, and laughs, and some beauty in the day and they’re the days that keep me going…and let me remember the fun we had x
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