Mum passed at the end of January. Im very up and down grief wise. Taking beta blockers to help with panic attacks, they are just awful. Today im in a mindset of none belief, cant believe mum isnt here anymore. I thought id moved past those thoughts. Is this normal grief wise. Thankyou x
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Hi I lost my mum January 12th this year. I can relate to everything you have said. I still can’t process she’s no longer here. Honestly it is normal. Grief is hard and affects everyone differently. Be kind to yourself and take care. Posting on here really helps
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Thankyou linda for your response. Ive had so much to deal with in-between all of this. Ive still to empty mums home where the tooth brush still sits. Nothing prepares you does it. It all gets very over whelming. I have very little family, none immediate but my husband and daughter. Take care to.
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No nothing prepares us. Mum had been getting frail but she was getting better and was looking forward to coming home. Then it happened really quick. She had become all confused again which they put down to her infection. They put her into bed at the hospital. My daughter left to go home. At 7pm my daughter phoned ward and they said she refused her tea because she was tired and was asleep. I gather then she wasn’t checked till change over about 8.15 pm. My daughter had just messaged me to let me know what they said. Then 8 30 my daughter rang me to tell me mum had died. Both in shock. Not sure why they didn’t ring me first as I was her next of kin. I don’t think hospital were expecting it either. It turned out she had caught a secondary pneumonia infection whilst in there. I keep beating myself up because I’d been really poorly with a chest infection and hadn’t seen her since the Tuesday before. Worried I would have made her worse. I was planning to see her on the Monday but it was too late. It still doesn’t seem real. I go to ring her and then realise I can’t. It’s good we can post on here. Stay strong. But also be kind to yourself. Take care x
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