I just don’t even know where to start because this is not easy to explain.
I had a bit of an affair with someone back in 2013 and we both had a lot going on our lives. I just latched on to him for comfort and then when it ended he did me so wrong.
Then got a phone call telling he got killed and I just don’t know why I feel so down. A friend of mine said it’s because I was intimate with him but it’s more than that.
I feel upset because of what has happened to him and I also remember before things got complicated between us how he was. He was a character I tell u that.
But I feel like angry because I never got to ask him so many things.Why did he lie about us put everything on me.I can’t ask him now all these things but even if I did think it might of made me feel still sad.
I just feel mixed feelings and don’t think the person who told me understands how it’s affected me really deep down. I have a wonderful boyfriend at the moment and I will go on and be happy but this has thrown me. I never been with guy and then hear that he died. Weather we were not talking or not I just feel bad inside.
I will probably have to let those questions go now. To be killed like that has made me feel sick. He was buried yesterday and I am broken.
Anyone felt like this?