Totally numb

We got my sister ashes back about 2 months ago. She is at her mums house . And eventually Tracey ashes will go in with our dad, there is some comfort of tracey being back at mums house. But it as been 5 months since Tracey Died, and it is not getting any easier and I know it will never get easier to deal with . We will all have bad days and some good days , still can not believe I will never see Tracey my sister ever again and the pain is unbearable I miss her so much. Leeds