Hi everyone,
I’m 29 years old and I lost my mum to cancer on the last day of January 2025 and I’m completely traumatised by the whole thing. She was 51 years old.
She was diagnosed as stage 4 in March 2024 after going to the doctors for pain in her shoulder. That was her only symptom.
I cared for her throughout her entire illness but before that, she was actually my carer as I have complex mental health issues. Although her actual death was peaceful, the entire time before that was so traumatising. She had an awful time with treatments and it took such a toll on her body and mind. On top of that, it felt like we had to fight for every single bit of help we received (but that’s a story for another day).
She was in hospice care for less than 48 hours before she died and most of that, she was unconscious.
Everything was just so quick and awful that I feel like I shut down and haven’t been able to process everything.
I’m currently having counselling with the hospice and while that is really helpful, the sessions will be coming to an end soon and I have no idea what to do next.
She was my rock, my best friend and my favourite person in the whole world and now she’s gone and I am expected to carry on.
I think part of me is still in shock. If anyone has experienced anything similar, please tell me it gets easier…
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.