Some days are so much easier than others .was watching a program tonight with hubby witch took me back to my nams death…
It was ambulance there was a son given his dad cpr .hit me big style as that what I had to do with my mother them words on the phone to ne push push push .don’t think I’ll ever get the scene out of my head …
Hardest thing I’ve done in my life

I’m finding the slightest things triggering at the moment. I only lost my Dad on Friday and its just awful. People say there will be triggers for a long time yet, we just have to stay strong and be there for each other

Songs get me every time