Cannot seem to consider a future without my husband, did not get to say goodbye. Post mortem delayed his burial for a month and trying to deal with all our business is draining. I feel lost and my children rally round me but I want them to continue with their own lives.
So sorry for your loss. I too never got to say goodbye to Phil. I’m eight months into my ‘ new life’ and it is hard but the intense grief does ease a little overtime. Dealing with all the sadmin as you say is totally draining and made harder by dealing with people who just don’t understand how hard it all is. I too get it when you say you want your children to live their lives and they will but they want to help you live yours too although living a life probably seems impossible for you at the moment. Accept all the help that is offered, something I didn’t like doing ( well still don’t) . As for thinking of the future don’t! It’s scary and overwhelming take each hour as it comes
Thinking of you