I was going to call in and see my best friends near Canterbury on the way home, but they have their daughter and her fiancé plus a widower there for dinner. The last thing I need today is another widower. I’m really struggling on the ferry like I did coming home in February. Heating hasn’t come on at home either! 16 degrees indoors. Also had news that my daughter #1s best friend has finally died from her cancer. Another Nigel widower with 2 teenage daughters too.
I can’t even face the family at the Social Club today.
Sorry I’m not feeling up to reading and replying atm! Much love all. Nigel xxx
I lost my partner four years ago. Although the initial rawness has worn off I miss her with all my heart and will never truly get over her loss. As far as what you ask my best advice is take your time, do nothing in a hurry. For various reasons I sold our house quite soon after she passed away so had to make some decisions quicker than I would have liked. I parted with some things that I wished I hadn’t and now regret it but its to late so take your time.
It will be 4 months on Thursday, and i get good days and OK-ish days now, however, grief is an ambush predator and can get you at any time. A random thought, hearing a particular song etc is enough to set me off.
I know what Hazel wants of me. I have to look after the family and look after myself. But i miss her so very, very much, because i love (present tense) her so very very much. A step and a day at a time
Glad you got home safely Debsie you did so well will be easier next time .
Nigel glad you had a safe journey so sorry you had more sad news, it’s hard enough going back to empty house always gets to me .
Dave i’m so glad your spending time with family it makes everything seem better x
Nigel, I’m so sorry, that is not the news you wanted to hear, life is so horrible to us at the moment. All I do can do is send hugs, reply when you are ready, just glad you made the journey to the ferry. Not too much longer now. Take care xxxx:hugs:
I’m just home folk. Thanks for your messages. I’m now going to unpack the car and try to put things away quickly! Then I’ll have a sit down and read what you’ve all been up to!
I am batch cooking on Tuesday. Ruby is 3 in July. Loves food and loves attention. They are a very affectionate breed. Always snuggling under the blanket to be near you. Loves to bark and bark and bark. Detests the rain, I have an umbrella to take her out for wees. Such a stubborn dog. Plus she is very naughty. X
Lovely pictures. Somewhere for your love to go. They must be such a comfort.
I am tired tonight. I went for a walk and just felt so sad. Bumped into some friends which was nice.
Time to chill, today has been hard. Hope you feel better now Nigel. You must be tired after your long drive. It’s hard to get your mood up once it’s down. I’m not sure how long I can stay awake.
