Hello everyone.
It will be the second anniversary of my hubby’s passing this Friday.
We were married for nearly 42 years and he died just two weeks after a lung cancer diagnosis.
It still doesn’t feel real and I still find it hard to think I’ll be spending the rest of my life without him by my side.
It doesn’t get any easier. I still miss him and think about him every minute of every day but I am so grateful for all the years I did have with him and for how safe and secure and loved he made me feel.
Just wanted to share with people who really understand.
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Hi @Hope2 ,
Thank you so much for sharing this with the community 
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.
Take good care,
Alex
Hi Hope 2
So good to read your post and I wanted to say it was 2 yrs last Thursday 17th Oct since my lovely husband John died and like you still finding life very difficult and very lonely.
We did everything together for 40 yrs and the 10th Oct was our Wedding Anniversary too. October will always be a sad month for me.
I keep my myself busy , volunteer and meet friends but still life is not good.
I hope one day I will feel happier again
and I wish I could say it gets easier but sorry it doesnt but you learn to live with it on your own.
I understand how you feel and you are not alone. I send you love and hope . Look after yourself. Shelley
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Hi Shelly.
Thank you so much for your lovely response to my post.
So sorry to hear your story but grateful to you for sharing.
I’m so up and down lately. One day I’ll wake up and feel quite bright and positive. I’ll meet friends and be all upbeat with them, get into one of my hobbies or do sone housework. The next day I’ll wake up feeling I can’t face anyone. I cancel plans, can’t get motivated to do anything at all and sit there worrying and feeling totally alone and wondering how I’m ever going to go on for the rest of my life like this, without him my side loving me and helping me and sharing all the decisions, hopes and dreams and dramas in life.
Do you get like that?
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Hi Hope 2
Yes infact I have had a bad weekend since Friday.
I think it is very normal to feel up and down but for me it is getting a little easier as I only occasionally have down times. I just feel so lonely even when I am with friends and family.
I hate living on my own as have never done it before. This life I have now is not great because its not what I chose. I loved the life I had…But I know I have got to be positive and look forward as I have no choice and people get on with their lives and it is only me that change life and except I am on my own now.
I expect you feel the same but we can do it and there must be some sort of life for us now.
Grief is awful and I understand exactly how you feel. I always hope that we will learn to deal with it and find some sort of ‘happiness’ in the future.
Keep going, you have made 2 yrs without seeing him or being with him…We are stronger than we think.
Love and hugs Shelley
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Thank you Shelly.