Two years and getting harder

Lost my daughter to suicide. It’s getting worse not better after 2 years. Hiding it from everyone.

Hello lumi,
I just wanted to say I understand that feeling too. It’s often said the 2nd year is harder and I’m coming upto my daughter’s 2nd year in August. I’m much the same and keep myself to myself. Work because I have too and then I’m home most of the time. Feel home is safe and I’m protected there. I’m so much sadder now, weighs heavy but do try to find glimmers of joy in nature and my little garden. Need the break from feeling so heartbroken and empty. :white_heart:
I hope you find some moments of peace today. Michelle , Chloe’s mum F28

It’s approaching 2years since I lost my daughter. I don’t think anything about this will ever get easier, as you say, we just hide it more. I never know if that’s a me issue or a them issue. I think we hide it more because we feel they don’t want to see it or hear it. The fact that no one visits any more or talks about her any more tells me it’s a them issue.
We don’t talk about grief, especially the grief of losing a child, in this country. People are too quick to medicalise our emotions or believe it’s our personalities that create this extreme grief. They don’t, and never will, understand that losing a child robs us of ever feeling true happiness again.
I also keep to myself, it’s isolating but also comforting, there aren’t any misjudged words or awkward situations.
Just wish she was still here with me and all those other broken souls on here could hold their children too.

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Lumi, I send you love. I am almost 7 weeks in after I lost my son, Liam, also to suicide. This is a pain that is impossible to imagine. For now I am mainly just reading posts here, dont feel I have anything much to offer. What was your daughters name? I am finding friends dont want to say his name, and its important to speak their names I think. X

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I understand your pain . People don’t know what to do or say . I find if you use the name others follow. Talk about Liam . My daughters name is Lucy xx

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À good name choice :heart_eyes:

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