Thank you so much for replying. I feel your pain as you feel mine. Seeing our dear husbands pass like we did is horrific and how we have coped is a miracle.I went to Cruse counselling in mid 2015. The was a long waiting list but i waited and saw a counsellor for 10 hourly sessions. I had to travel to the venue but i didnt mind. I found it cathartic and coukd be myself. The yoing counsellor was sensitive and this helped me cope. After the 8 sessions finished I had a gap but reurned in early 2016. This helped me as i saw the same lady.
To lose our husbands like we did is so cruel and the shock hits and I am in shock now andcant believe hes gone from me in the flesh. Do you feel your husband is with you in spirit, Tina? I see Ralph clearly in my mind’s eye and its a sort of comfort for me but its so painful snd i cry every day alone and in company too.
I am in bed now and its a king size bed and i feel in an ocean of mattress. My counsellor suggested i lay in the middle rather thsn on the side i always slept on and i tried it snd for me it worked and feel its right for me. I may downsize but even this is a painful thought.as though im shutting him out.
I would like to hear from you again if you pop in. It was good to get a notification vua email of your post