It is such a shame there is no button for a ‘double like’. Today is my 2nd anniversary for my mum. My sister and I are still in the family home. We both had other personal reasons why we didn’t sell and move. So we are going to have another go at it this year.
Here is a quote I’d like to share with you, which I still think of today especially.
“You know, everyone says that the first year is the hardest. But it’s not. In the first year, you are expecting it to be very hard. All those “firsts”, the first birthday, the first wedding anniversary, the first Christmas, the first anniversary of their death. So, you are kind of focused on getting through that. I found” she said “the second year was much harder. Because you’ve been so focused on getting through all those “firsts” and getting through the first year. And now the first year is over, and you find they are still dead. And that’s when it really starts to sink in, that it’s actually real and forever and they aren’t coming back.”
A Cruse counsellor suggested that one reason for my continued grieving is that I am still in what was my mother’s house. So this year I hope to move out and finally start my new life.