Lost my long time partner in June everyone has been great and supportive but sometimes I just want to be alone even when the grief is overwhelming I still sometimes need to be alone am I wrong to feel like I’m being pressured to do things or see people especially when I didn’t see them before I don’t always want to be with people when I politely decline I feel bombarded with them offering other options I know they are trying to be supportive it just feels like so much pressure
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I understand, I lost my husband 2 month ago and family have been great and I understand they want to look after me and not leave me alone but I have had to be firm and tell them I do need time on my own to process things, whilst making arrangements to do things with them another time, they are starting to accept that I have to get used to my new reality, maybe you need to have a chat and explain how you feel to them, I am sure they will understand and will be happy to do what you want …take care x
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Thank you for your reply sometimes I find I need to be in my own feelings even if it is hard and painful if that makes sense
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It does make sense… everybidy processes things in their own way.there is no right or wrong way to grief…x
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Dear @Lisa5067
I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my husband almost 7 months ago. Like you, early on, everbody rallied round and took me out for ‘walks’. At the time it was the last thing I wanted to do. As you mentioned I just wanted to be alone to process things.
As time has gone on, I realised that these forced walks may have stopped me from falling deeper into the sadness of my grief.
The path we are all on is torturous, and there is no right or wrong. All you can do is function day to day whilst your mind processes the shock/hurt/disbelief/loneliness.
Take care. Please keep posting if it helps.
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I have always been a introvert, my husband loved to socialize. He was my rock that I leaned on. We complemented each other. I don’t miss socializing I just miss him terribly. Sorry for your loss, it’s been 6 months today for me. So hard to believe this is my new life going forward, scary, lonely and sad. I’m so grateful for my family and friends for sure. I’m the first in my generation of family to become a widow at 67, no one can truly understand until that dreadful time finds you. Take care 
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You too, x
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I get it Lisa5067. We had been married for 42 years and I had been my husband’s carer for the last 3/4 years so I had kind of cut myself off from any kind of social life so I don’t have much of a network. We didn’t have any children either and my family is spread far and wide so I am very alone. Some days I just sit at home all day crying feeling sorry for myself as I just can’t bear it a future like this. However I also have times when I need to be completely on my own away from everything so I’ve already had 3 short holidays in 5 months in a holiday cottage in the middle of nowhere with just my dogs who get me up every day. Somehow the solitude is very healing.
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I’ve always liked being alone, but when I had my spouse, it was a different kind of alone. He was always there, somewhere around. Now, it’s alone alone and different.
I’ ve always sought out deeper meaning in life and not really a mainstream, casual person so it’s more difficult I think anyway. I think the solitude is healing right now, lots of sorting out of things.
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