My wife died on Sunday 25 August this year at around 11pm. She died at home and I was alone with her. She had Stage 4 cancer. She was unconscious for the last few days and had two syringe drivers for pain relief. I continued to talk to her and read to her from the Bible (she was a committed Christian). On that last night, she opened her big brown eyes slightly. I don’t know if she could see me or not, but I waved to her and smiled through my tears. She became unconscious again and I stayed with her, talking and reading to her. She became restless and began calling for her father, who died a few years ago. She had done this a few days before, and I told her both times I was sure he would be there in spirit. Finally, I went to put the kettle on and brew some tea and when I returned to her room about ten minutes later, she had passed away. I’ve been devastated ever since, and every Sunday evening is an awful anniversary. i usually spend the entire evening sleeping just to escape it. Does anybody experience anything like this?
Dear Aubrey it is so hard for you because you went to make your cuppa and she went but when she opened her eyes earlier that was likely her goodbye to you.
It is so hard , the grieving, the thoughts we have, the guilt, the anger so many emotions all mixed up together, I am almost 6 months in and it does get easier as time passes but some days are still dreadful and i think we will always have bad days but they will become less intense. Our grief is our love and that is not going to fade.
I hope you feel a little better tomorrow xx
Yes, I have wondered about her opening her eyes. It felt like a very important moment in retrospect, although I had no idea of just how short time was at that moment. I smiled and waved and kissed her forehead and told her I love her for the millionth time. Then she closed her eyes and slipped back into apparent unconsciousness, but she was also restless and calling for her late father - she was very close to her dad. I don’t know about life about death, but perhaps he came to take her spirit with him to the ‘other side’. I hope so.
None of us truly know but if you believe that and it helps make that your memory and your belief. It sounds like a lovely goodbye to me XX 
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Yes. My wife was a dedicated Christian but I’m agnostic. I really don’t know. But it could be. I remember my dear grandmother, who died in 1999. She was calling for her mother and father at the end. As you say, we don’t know. but there’s a lot we can’t see in everyday life. x