It’s been 3 months. And it’s been a roller coaster ride that I never wanted to be on.
I’ve reached a point where I can think of Paula and smile, and cry.
I’ve even found some good to come out of the last 12 months (through endless hospital visits, watching as her health grew worse, and sitting with her as she died).
I keep busy, my guard drops when I’m not.
I believe she is in a better place, she is still with me and I will see her again.
But, I also have the, at times, overwhelming feeling of ‘whats the point’.
Life has very much carried on without her and I have been dragged along with it.
I’m so sorry for the loss of Paula. Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m just giving your thread a gentle “bump” for you - hopefully someone will have some thoughts to share.
Hi and so sorry for your loss, three months is still very early on in grief. I’m almost eleven months in now, after losing my partner suddenly, and I still feel like that.. When your life had been intertwined with a soulmate it is devastating to lose that person. At three months you’re probably still trying to make sense of everything. I hope you have support as grief can be relentless and it helps to have someone to talk to. This forum is so helpful because people on here understand your feelings, because they are on their own grief journeys. Take care.
Hi Two flowers. Today “Monday” is exactly 24 weeks, or 6 months since I lost my partner Theresa and I feel exactly the same as you , but our partners would want us to carry on as we would want them to carry on if we had went before them.mit is not an easy road we are on and we just have to travel it one day at a time. Take care
@Twoflower Very sorry for your loss. Those “what’s the point” feelings are the worst. The best one can do I think, is make yourself the point. I’m trying my best, but I know, half your heart is ripped out, who to tell your day to? Who cares? Telling it here helps, on the “how’s your day going” thread. Reach out whenever you need to. I wish you peace Cindy
