I lost my Grandma in July and it was quite sudden and unexpected. I cry every time I think about her and most days she crosses my mind. I think I am ok when I don’t think about it but I want to make sure I am processing things.
I’ve noticed that since July my emotions have been so up and down. I feel happy then sad then crying hysterically, I feel frustrated and short tempered but then at other times have no feelings at all.
I’ve felt like I don’t want to talk to people, have been withdrawn and have less emotional capacity for listening to others than I used to. I don’t really care about work I just get by. I’ve been lying aimlessly most evenings and days and it’s so hard to get up and do things. I’ve got no drive. I just feel exhausted and want to sleep. I get headaches all the time and constantly have a cold.
I think it’s been compounded by the fact that a month after my best friend was diagnosed with late stage cancer and I’ve been struggling with supporting her too. On top of this my aunty is on palliative care and I feel guilt for not supporting my mum enough.
Is this grief? Is this emotional exhaustion? Do they come as a package?
Can anyone help me with things they do to keep on top of daily life with grief? Everything seems so hard - even things I used to enjoy.
Thanks x