When will the grief end (poem)

I deal with loss the best I can,
5th of May it all began,
My partner beaten ,
We were cruelly parted,
This is how my horror started,
Future life will mean so little,
Plans and hobbies play second fiddle,
Time for others I have not got,
I easily snap and lose the plot,
Two years of grief I’m still not coping,
I feel my brain is decomposing,
Life needs change that’s upto me,
To make my future that’s the key,
For me to open up new doors,
I use the key ,
And my strength grows,
At this moment I’m stuck in grief,
But what’s to come is such relief,
Grief has still a roll to play,
So future plans won’t start today.