@JP20.J Something that I read about grieving, which I ask myself sometimes, is what would mum say? Or what would mum tell me? We carry so much of our mums in us - especially when like you, you were so close to your mum - and I try and remember what she would say to me. It might not help, but I sometimes find it comforting to remind myself. Your mum sounds so lovely - you write about her so lovingly and I get a real sense of how close you were.
I see it in the news every day now, about restrictions being lifted, and families visiting their loved people again, and I’m so happy for them and heartbroken for those of us who will never get to do that - it’s too late. That hurts so much. Those hard days are when we need to remember we are here for each other. If it helps, maybe you could share some memories of your mum here? Maybe that’s something we can do Xx