On the 21st March I lost my partner and best friend of 20 years. We were finally due to get married on 1st May.
He died suddenly and unexpectedly of a heart attack at the age of 42. There had been no illness or warning. I was at work and returned home to find paramedics waiting for me, at that point he had already gone.
Since his death I’ve had my 40th birthday (not the celebration we’d planned!), his birthday at the end of April and I had to cancel our wedding set for the 1st May.
I feel so lost I don’t know where to begin. My family and friends have been amazing but whenever I’m with someone I still feel alone and like I want to be elsewhere. I’m returning to work in a couple of weeks and hope this will help add some structure back to my day.
However, I would like some advice. I’m unsure what to do about his clothes and other items. Whenever I start to look though them I get upset so I’ve left everything as he did. It feels like sorting though them or giving them away is like removing him from my life and our home. Daft I know!
I’d appreciate any advice the community has with things such as this and how you coped. Because it was so sudden it doesn’t quite feel real yet.