Why am i so devoid of emotion

I lost my beautiful mum ,quite suddenly 8 weeks ago ,i filled with tears at her death,and a little at her funeral ,but havent cried properly yet. Then 3 weeks ago,my lifelong best friend died unexpectedly. I just feel completely devoid of emotion,i feel so numb,but getting on with each day as though nothing has happened. Tonight i was watching stand up to cancer,which normally has me sobbing,but nothing ,i was completely emotionless. Im going on a lovely holiday next week,which was booked last year,my husband is excited about it,as i would be normally but again,i just dont feel anything. Please help me,anyone felt this way before ? When dad died 6 years ago i cried and grieved " properly " ,for want of a better description, im just worried ive lost myself,i do feel sad of course,but i feel normal most of the time,as though nothing has happened,thanks in advance,i would really appreciate some help

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My husband died on September 24. I cried when he was diagnosed, when he died, the day before his funeral, and at his funeral. I haven’t cried since. I am numb. No emotion. Flat. Very unlike me. I think it is normal just as sobbing is normal.

At least that is what some of the posters here have said to me.

It is okay. Just be.

Much love.

Thank you so much for taking the time to reply. Im so sorry for your loss ,it helps to know that its not just me feeling this way x

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No, it isn’t just you. Some say it is shock, I don’t know the difference between shock and numb. I’ve bawled for months after other losses - now I am empty.

It is just another way of coping.

Much love.

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