I have never felt so exhausted in my life.
3 months after my husband died his cousin died suddenly as well. We 3 were very close and it was another shock I had to cope with. She also made me executor to her Will so I have been sorting that out as well. Probate is in progress. When my husband died she came to stay with me until lockdown. She reassured me that all the things my husband and I liked to do together she would do with me, like visiting National Trust places and gardens and holidays. That gave me something to look forward to. Now she is gone as well and again I am so sad and feeling cheated yet again.
My 96 year old aunt has been in hospital for 4 months after a fall. She was discharged home on Monday with a full Care package but at the moment is struggling. Because I am her Next of Kin I am called at all hours of the day and night by Carers, Social Workers and neighbours and I am so tired of it all. I have very uncharitable thoughts about her because she is still here and doesn’t want to be and my precious husband who fought so hard to live isn’t. As you say, life is so unfair.