Having a bad day/week/year
Does it ever get any better?
Having a bad day/week/year
Dear JaneD, It is over four months now since I suddenly lost my husband. I am crying every day and cannot sleep properly. My life is upside down. You asking if it is getting better. No, it is not getting better soon (might it never will get better) but it is changing. There is a kind of acceptance (although still crying) and a kind of survival instinct kicks in. It is not really living - it is more a kind of strange existence. I started reducing my intake of Kalms and Nytol because they are not really helping, they just make me feel numb. I try hard to get any motivation to clean the house, get on top of paperwork, etc. but alone to get up, clean myself, brush my teeth, etc. takes mostly all of my energy. Yes, life is shit, and yes, it is not getting better but we will survive somehow like all the others before us. Our loved ones are always with us in our memories and dreams. Sending you lots of love and hugs.
I’m 13 weeks tomorrow and this week seems to be harder than ever . I’m really struggling
Sending big hugs xxx
Dear PollyjaneW, I am so sorry that you are having a bad time again. Sending you lots of love and hugs. We are going through this terrible nightmare together.
Big hugs to you @Annaessex xxx
I know … im wondering that too ! I start feeling better and then there i go back into that black hole of grief ! He was such a sweetheart to me so why did I have to lose that love ! Why couldnt some of the total idiots in the world - why couldnt it happen to them not me !! Xx
I ask myself thot every day. It’s so so unfair
Hi @PollyjaneW I look around at people (and I know I shouldn’t) but I think why are you still here and my lovely husband isn’t. As I say, I know it’s wrong of me to think that way but those thoughts do go through my mind.x
I know …nothing wrong with that ! Its only natural … we didn’t want them to go so ofcourse we gonna wonder why other people didnt go ? X
I do it , it’s not wrong it’s how we feel sadly xxxxx
Yep and the damn unfairness of it all ! xx
I know right !!! I just don’t understand why we were chosen & robbed of our soulmates I still shake my head in complete disbelief that this has happened xxxx
Yeh i do that too … shake my head when im thinking of this situation ! Its like a flipping nightmare isnt it ? X
Yep!!! A never ending one xxx
Yeh … It affects every area of your life doesnt it sadly hope you’re ok ? Xxx
@Deb5 it does . Trying to be . Hope you are too xxx
On and off ! Thanks … its hard … and the missing them is hard isnt it … ! xx
Definitely !!! And this week has been a tough one . Had to let Brys car go today and it was heartbreaking xxxxx
Aw @Lonely thats sad ! These things do make us soooo sad … i know ! I cant move my husbands stuff cos i cant let him go !!! Ive gotta keep as much of him as i can still near me xxx