Why is life so shit?

Hey guys! So I lost my grandad 2 years ago now. Still feels so fresh. I struggle a lot without him. I got married a month ago and he wasn’t there. It kills me everyday. I have a lot of guilt inside… he had covid and he was poorly. His oxygen was low and I phoned the ambulance… why did I do that? Would he still be here if I never did??? After eventually realising he’s no longer here I was happy to get married. Now my father in law had a severe stroke and I’ve been caring for him. I love him like my own dad but my mental, emotional and physical health is deteriorating I can’t take it.


Hello @Gdhanjal

I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling. I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your grandad and your father in law’s stroke. It sounds like you have a very close relationship with your father in law and had the same with your grandad. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one or cared for loved ones and so will understand some of what you are going through.

I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share a few Sue Ryder resources with you that might be helpful.

I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.

Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.

Take care,