Here I am just over 5 months since I lost my beloved Keef. The last week I have felt worse than ever, well apart from the original day/event (my son’s title of it!). I cry so much every single day. My body seems to be falling apart but I think it’s just down to anxiety. We were together almost 44 years. How am I supposed to cope? It just doesn’t make any sense. This time last year we were planning our 3 weeks holiday to the Scottish islands, full of some much optimism. Life just seems so pointless now. I really don’t know what I am supposed to do. He was only 63 (my toy boy as I’m 65!) and it was far too soon as we had so many plans.
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Dear Guineapig65, I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time. I also lost my husband five months and two days ago. It is a horrible roller-coaster existence we are going through. It was not too bad Friday morning because I had to go out to get my medicine etc but since I returned home I am crying on and off. I always think that sunshine makes it worse. We also planned to go to Norfolk for a week and we were looking forward to a nice break again but faith decided against us. We were almost 26 years together from we were 15 years and two months married. Most of the time I am just bewildered about what happened to our happy life and why he was taken from me so cruelly and suddenly. I am on my own now and it is a horrible lonely existence with no purpose to carry on. I am 62 and he was 65. Sending you lot of love and hugs,
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@Guineapig65 and @Annaessex I understand the feeling of having our futures robbed so well. But I think as Annaessex said the days we are busy and distracted are a bit better. That is what I try to do, keep myself busy as much as I can and I find it really does help me. We didn’t want this future that we have been dealt but I’m sure our darling husbands would want us to live life as they were cheated of their’s. Not easy I know. Sending hugs.
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Good morning all, i know only too well the feeling of having the future ripped away cruelly. My Donna was only 46 when she passed away on 30th May, we were supposed to have been going on a Mediterranean cruise on 23rd of June, this ended up being the day of her funeral. She was so very excited to be going, she’d bought lots of new clothes, done countdown boards, planned trips ashore…all stolen away.
Now its just me and the 2 dogs here, I’m 62, have had losses in the past, but none come anywhere near this. I went back to work last week, apart from monday which would have been her birthday. Working helped, but coming home the emptiness and loneliness is inescapable.
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I can’t bear to think about the future . We too were to be off on holiday . My husband was my soulmate and we had 30 years together . Taking him suddenly at 58 is so cruel . The only thing I can do is try to keep busy . The pain os so intense isn’t it
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I agree, i just feel so cheated, not so much for me, but for her. She was disabled, but so strong and positive, she loved life, and she never let her disability stop her doing anything she wanted. Along with so many stories on here, its just so tragic and cruel .
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