Laid in bed thoughts spiralling no sleep again! And all I can think is why me? Why am I being punished? Why such a good man taken far too young? It’s cruel, what have I done to deserve this? He won’t see so many things in his kids lives! How long can I keep it together for the boys especially the youngest at 11? How long can I keep going before I break?
Does the spiralling ever stop or get less?
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I’m so sorry for the loss of your husband and that you’re feeling this way. I find the nights the worst when you’re left alone with thoughts racing and nobody to comfort you.
My situation is different, I lost my mum in March but I lived with her and, if I was upset for any other reason right now, she would be here and able to comfort me. I know it’s not the same, but I do understand some of how you’re feeling.
Life does seem so very cruel at times and it just seems so unfair. Your grief is still very raw but you have come this far because you are being so strong for your boys. When you first lost your husband, I bet you couldn’t even imagine getting all the way to August without him, but you’ve done it somehow even though it must have been horrendously difficult for you.
I just wanted to let you know you’re not alone, even at this time in the morning x
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I know your pain its 16 days since i lost my husband age 54 funeral on monday this pain is just unbearable 
we have been robbed of our futures together god it hurts.
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Robbed without a doubt mine was 52
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I’m sorry for the pain of the loss that led to your post. Yes, life can seem very cruel especially when you focus on what you’ve lost. My boys lost their Dad ten years ago now, our youngest was only just six years old. I won’t pretend, I still have times when I feel so sad about how much they’ve missed out on, without their Dad. However, I am also very proud of everything they’ve achieved in the past decade. Focusing on being a strong parent for my boys has helped me keep positive over the years. I hope, given time, you’ll find the strength to keep going. Take each day at a time… best wishes xx
I think in time you learn to live with it. It’s still so raw but it’s only 12 weeks so I know it will be. It’s the empty bed/ empty space next to you that sets me off the most. Might hit the couch tonight see if that helps. Ours are 22, 19 and 11.
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I feel so ill still not sunk in chapel of rest tomorrow to see him then the funeral monday my king my everything 
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It’s hard I don’t think it does until after the funeral then it hits hard. I couldn’t see mine he died abroad so he had deteriorated by the time he got home
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Oh no im so sorry 
im scared and feel like im not on this planet its like im not really here feel lost im so scared of leaving the house tomorrow not been out since he passed 16 days ago
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It’s hard 12 wks tomorrow for me and I still hate leaving the house hate seeing people complete opposite of who I was. I understand you being scared I felt like I was in a dream and I just needed to wake up. But everyone says one step at a time and it’s true don’t think to far ahead otherwise you get swamped. Sometimes I can only think a few hours ahead. I’ve got a massive social event next Saturday and I’m already panicking about it and I have my excuses ready to drop out.
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I feel exactly the same like its a dream i have zero motivation to do anything i really hope we can get through this 
Somehow we will xx
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