Why now?

I don’t know what is happening to me. I lost my partner in April 2024. He died in his sleep whilst on holiday abroad with his best mate. I still haven’t received the post mortem report. Apparently it takes months. I initially cried daily, but have coped fairly well by keeping myself busy. 4 days ago I experienced constant crying for nearly 24 hours. I have burst into tears randomly everyday since then. My body is in so much pain. Everything aches so bad. I can’t function. Everything is an effort. Sometimes I don’t want to be here anymore,

What’s the point?

Why have I suddenly experienced this crying and pain after 5 months.

Hi X6haw

I don’t think there is a time limit to these feelings. I lost my beloved partner suddenly while on holiday in April. You are probably in some delayed shock and you are in such a difficult position waiting for answers.
I still cry everyday at some point but I know it will pass for a while and I will be calmer. Some days are better than others but in reality I miss him every hour of every day.
Just take it a day at a time and don’t expect to feel any different by a certain time.
Please keep posting on here - it’s such a great support. However you are feeling there is always someone who feels the same and I find that a comfort.

Sending love and strength x

@X6haw I agree with @jody that you are in delayed shock compounded with the fact that you are awaiting the PM results. I think that when you have to wait for the next stage to happen and things are not progressing as they should, that makes everything harder than it needs to be.
It will be 7 months on Tuesday and I still cry every day. I sometimes literally stop in my tracks and break down in tears, a few minutes later I’m OK again. One hindrance for my moving forward is the fact that I had to give his ashes to his daughter as NOK. I really need to know what they plan, and I need a place to visit wherever he is to be scattered, if at all.