Hi everyone, 8 months ago a relative of mine committed suicide. He never presented as depressed, stressed, of low mood, or anything else that would cause us concern. In fact he (appeared) to have a good and happy life. I’m really struggling to come to terms with his passing, and all I can think of is WHY?
WHY didnt he talk to someone
WHY did i not realise
WHY did i not notice anything untoward
WHY did I not help him
WHY, Just WHY??
I feel I have let him down, and what if he was crying out for help, but none of us noticed?? I keep imagining how he was that night, on his own, so many miles away, sad and feeling like he had no other choice. What if I had got in touch with him that night? Would he still be here? Would he have opened up?
Do these WHY questions ever go away? Does the guilt every leave you?
Much love to you all. Thank you for reading xxx