I am struggling with the loss of my husband , who I lost to covid in February this year . I have a very supportive family , friends etc., but I need someone to talk to me who might be going through the same thing as me, this week I have missed him more than ever , I feel alone at times and I can’t seem to cope
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Hello
I am so sorry for your loss. This journey we are on is a hard one. I lost my husband 8 months ago and do understand what it is like - although each of us has a different experience. I too have supportive family but
I am finding life to be so lonely. My hubby used to say ‘Morning love’ and reach for my hand as we woke each day and a kiss goodnight as we went to sleep. Like you I miss him so much. This morning I realise I spoke to my daughter yesterday at 4pm and won’t speak to another person until 11 today when I meet a friend for coffee - and I’m fortunate to be meeting up. It’s lonely.
I have found this site to be a source f comfort - sounds strange that - but reading what other people are going through and how they are feeling and coping does make me realise that I am not the only one struggling with grief. Friends don’t understand but people on this site do as unfortunately each one of us has lost someone very special.
All I can say is keep on keeping on - a day at a time. It’s not easy.
Take care - sending hugs
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Thankyou, I have been in a dark place wanting to be with him it’s so hard , I went for coffee with my friends he would be golfing , then we would chat about our day. Like you kissing me good night being here when I got in from work , brew ready . Weekends are the worst I just don’t know if I will ever accept him not being here. Lots of love to you xx
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That’s another thing I miss - chatting over what has happened in the day and what has happened to friends etc.
I don’t think we will ever accept they are not here. We will perhaps, in time, get a little more used to it. I still wait for my hubby to come out of the garage where he would tinker with his old motorbikes for hours or be making or painting something. He loved being busy and achieving his aims. I can’t get rid of his tools or clothes because I keep thinking he’ll need them.
Not a lot of joy in anything now - and if I do find myself smiling at something with my family I feel guilty because he is not with us to enjoy it.
Sorry I’m having a moan - some days are slightly better now I’m 8 months in - but some days I’m still very low. Swings and roundabouts. We didn’t want this life we’re living now - but need to do as best we can for our families sake. Sending hugs xx
I feel just like you . Time is supposed to be a great healer but that seems a million miles away.i feel so robbed he went in with covid in January started to recover then went 10 steps back went into ICU in an induced coma , it was a nightmare he lasted 2 weeks then they turned everything off , life is so cruel he had so much more to give. My life will never be the same without him we were together 48 years x
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I lost my partner suddenly 6 weeks ago today. We were only a a few years into our relationship but we knew we’d be together for a lifetime. We both felt like we’d found our soulmate and we were ridiculously happy and in love. He was my absolute world and I know I was his. We had so many plans for the future and now I see no future without him. I am lucky to have many friends and family around me, but I feel so lost and lonely in this world. I can relate to everything everyone is saying and in some small way it helps to see that I am not the only one in this world who is feeling this way right now. Some days I feel I can take on the world and do him proud, but today is not one of those days. Today I just want to hide away and go to sleep as that is the only way I can escape the pain for a short while. I miss him more than words can say and still struggle to comprehend what has happened.
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I feel exactly like you . At the weekend I just didn’t want to carry on ,vi wanted to be with my husband . It helps talking about him but there is no quick fix. Everything you have described is ditto for me to . Big hugs on your journey , its just so hard xxx
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That’s how I feel tonight. Just want to go to sleep and not wake up. I can’t bear a life without him. I just miss him too much.
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Hi Lawley,
I’m so sorry to hear that you lost your partner so early. It sounds as though things are very hard, and you’re feeling lost these days. I think a lot of us have had the experience of wishing we could sleep the pain away.
It sounds like you’re looking for support and I’m glad that you’ve been able to talk about how you’re feeling here. There is lots of other support out there, and I would really encourage you to reach out and speak to someone about how you are feeling.
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- Samaritans are available 24/7 to talk about anything that you are worried about in confidence. You can call them on 116 123.
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- Shout are contactable by text, 24/7. You can text SHOUT to 85258 and talk to them about anything.
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- You can also find your local NHS urgent mental health helpline .
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- If you are at risk of harming yourself, please call 999 or contact your GP for an emergency appointment immediately.
Sue Ryder offers an online bereavement counselling service. This is a free service and sessions are held via video chat so you can attend from home. There’s more information about this service here: www.sueryder.org/counselling.
You can also make an appointment with your GP and ask to be referred to counselling or other support services in your area.
You deserve care and support so please, Lawley, get in touch with one of these services.
Take care,
Hazel
hi buddysed7 I lost my husband in may this year so I know how your feeling I’ve ant got much support a round me if u need someone 2 talk 2 I’m always about
Thankyou sam77 I am really struggling, I just feel I was robbed from him going in hospital in January where we did chat on messenger , next thing he was in a coma , all I constantly see is the tubes and them switching the machine off. At the weekend I just said I wanted to be with him and not here anymore xx
Thank you Hazel. I have managed to arrange some counselling, which is helping. My mood has just gradually spiralled today, but have been chatting with a friend who has helped.
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Hi,
I lost my partner in January,he also died of COVID-19.
It’s a task getting through each day.
I’m fortunate to have family and friends who understand.
However there’s days when I just can’t accept that I’ll never hear his voice or see him ever again.
I cry daily but in private when I’m home.
I can’t imagine how life will pan out in the future.
You not only have to deal with a life alone but all your plans that you had discussed together have gone.
It’s tough but we are not left with choices but to slowly take each day at a time
X
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I feel the same. I can’t cope with not being able to have a two way conversation with him or reach out and touch him - it’s so hard. Sending hugs
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Dear Buddy,
l am sorry to hear about the loss of your husband and how you are struggling. Like you, l too lost my husband to covid in February. it was a total shock and completely unexpected as he was only 55. l don’t know how l have managed to survive so far, but l am still here so l know what you are going through from a first hand experience. lt is tough and very painful. l just seem to have taken one day at the time. l have no expectations, no long term plans and try not to think or look too far ahead as it was the planning of our retirement together with my husband that l have now been robbed of, that has now left me feeling bereft and empty with a void that is irreplaceable. Like yourself, l have family and friends but it’s not the same. That void is there all the time. l try and always have some noise in the background. The tv, radio or music, anything to stop the feeling of me living alone in silence. Let’s continue to take one day at the time and see what tomorrow brings. Sending you hugs xx
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I understand how you feel. I lost my husband to Covid in March, 7 weeks after loosing my mum. He was 60, also was improving after being in hospital for 6 weeks, then died very suddenly. He wasn’t for Resuscitation and not eligible for an ITU bed. So not only am I lost without him and my mum, I’m angry about the system too, which seems to be a lottery. I feel he was stolen from us, our future gone in a minute. I am lucky that I have support, but like others express, I still feel lonely even though I have people around me. Only the people who have lost their partner can fully understand.
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Hi There - I also lost my husband to Covid in feb 2021- I know what your going through and it’s brutal isn’t it ? - we were married for 41 years and I cannot get my head around the fact that this fit and healthy human went into hospital and died 6 weeks later after fighting this wretched virus. I miss everything about him to caring and nurturing him ( as a wife ) to sharing our family and planning our future. I miss his company-his caring for me - the security he offered me and his presence he was my George - I couldn’t be with him for the 6 weeks he fought the virus - he was panicking and disillusioned why I wasn’t with him - this has and will always break my heart .
There are times when the desperation to be near him is so much that I cannot see a way of living without him- but I have four adult children in which he is within and have to be here for them as they have suffered enough -
I am here if you ever need someone to listen or reason with - I get how you feel - my goodness - I know how your feeling x
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@Shelley79
Hello
I loss my partner to covid, he was 56, a loving, caring and amazing man. I too wish I wasn’t here but have to be for my children. Everyday is hard, I cant believe I will never see him again. I’m so lost and empty without him by my side, we did everything together. He showed me so much love. I try to keep busy but he’s in my mind 24/7. I cry everyday, its so painful. I know how you feel we all do on this site.
Amy xx
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Same here - keeping on going for my two adult children. Life is just empty and barren of the emotions once shared. I feel for everyone in this position - happy couples torn apart when they had futures to look forward to. Life doesn’t make any sense to me any more.
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