What is it about this time of year that makes me weepy and all upsets get taken to heart.
Everyone excited for Xmas and I just want it gone and light nights and sunshine back. I have friends and family but feel very alone. Miss the supportive hug that says it’ll be alright. Lot of bad days at moment that I’m trying to mask and carry on.
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its not winter till 21st dec but i love the dark nights and you do get plenty of sunshine albeit not warm, always did love it since i ws a kid. many people dont like xmas for whatever reason, i love it even though i havent got hubby here and he was one the ones who didnt like it but was quite happy to eat the xmas dinner and get the presents, lol.
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Well I find Xmas an anti climax.
Guess best time when kids little.
But really I just go through motions.
All parents dead, my brother too old now to travel and visa versa not happens these days his wife got dementia. My son with in-laws. My other son and me that is all that is left and. Make effort for him.
It is hard when you get older.
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I feel as you do the winter is unbearable I have lost my beautiful man nearly two years now but feels as it it was yesterday
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Well it is stuck indoors and an effort to get togged up. Cold even to get to the car. Aches made worse in the colds.
Miserable stark grey short days.
Someone will say I am just being negative. But it is tough when you are elderly and alone
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You are not being negative you are being true to how you feel and yes winter in itself alone is hard for most of us and yes it is really tough being alone and the older you are the tougher it is. Be proud of yourself for getting through everything you have gone through x
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Keep plodding on. I talk to my husband and sense he is with me
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Thank you. Yesterday I tried to do my creative writing homework ready for the last zoom meeting this term. I got there but after coping with the loss of my cat last week and flooded garage, I managed to get on line and just explain how I was struggling. I am glad I went. I tried to get ready for choir practice. I got to the car and just couldn’t get the windows dry so I could see out. Last week it had been bad enough trying to drive in the dark and park with no spaces and then walk with no torch down a dark lane so I just turned back and thought I am not going to put up with this it isn’t worth it. So fell asleep instead after sending a message. It takes so long to struggle. I am going to ask for a lift next week.
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sorry to hear bout your cat and garage . i dont drive so i have to go by bus and i am nearly 70. admittedly i dont go out in the evenings, havent done that for about 35 yrs so nothing new but i love the winter and the dark evenings.
may i suggest getting another cat maybe from a rescue
Thank you for your reply.
I am nearly 80 now and ten years ago it was easier. The cat used to get under my feet so I am not hurrying to get another one just yet.
I am feeding the birds and thinking of seeing how it goes.
I am not going to winge about it. Because I realized no one wants to hear it. So I going to try to think grateful thoughts if I can fake it until you make it.
I just heard one of my old flames from before I married has just died at 86. I have been doing a creative writing course on zoom. The teacher suggested writing a story about about a time in your life and changing the ending. Making things has been interesting for the christmas tree festival.
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@Enorac i know where you are coming from with pets, i havent the patience any more at my age, health wouldnt let me take them fora walk. iam quite happy with my snakes they are easy to look after. plus i have my fox i feed every day, she sits in the garden for hrs sometimes and waits for me. ihave writtenloads of stories that used to be online but afterhubby died i lost the server so not there now. cant afford to put them back up. cant do zoom as i have a desktop computer and havent the fscilities to do it on there and again its too exspensive to use