Hi, I’ve joined this site today, to hopefully be able to express my grief and sadness in a way, after losing a partner few months ago. It started last year when I started a new job in a new area. I already lost my sister coming up 5 years next month and that was difficult to come to terms with after few years off trying to get back to feeling some sort normal again, although lots of high and lows during the pandemic here I am again going through it all for a second time, only this time it is with someone I was having a new relationship with and fell madly in love with; I keep saying I cannot believe this has happened to me again and its turned my world completely upside down. Struggling to find any sort of enjoyment atm, I keep looking around and seeing life just carrying on, and here I am just still trying to make sense of the past 4 months of hell. 
@Sevans77 so sorry for your loss, everyone on here has a different story but describe the grief so accurately. It has helped me since my husband died 4 and a half weeks ago. Its not a journey any of us want to be on. Sending a big hug. Rant and rave on here if you need to, we all understand sadly.
Sending big hugs .
I’m 7 weeks in and can’t offer much positivity at this point apart from this lovely group. 
My partner passed away on the 7th February, we was looking forward to spending the rest of our lives together. It’s been so tragic for me. Never saw this coming. So I know how your feeling. 
xx
Thank you. I only got told this devastating news on the 27th January, I only met my partner last year, but we became inseparable, life was starting to look up for me after lots of personal challenges like everyone this past few years. I keep on asking myself why have I been hit with so much this past few years. When I look back at the pattern of our relationship I think at how quick his diagnosis was he knew he just couldn’t tell me, last year I was just starting to get over accepting the loss of my sister who passed away end of May 2018 and that was awful, But now I’ve lost a partner who made me so happy, I keep saying this life is wicked at what it puts us through.
@Sevans77 sorry for your loss. The club that no one wants to join. 2 weeks today since my husband of 22 years went, within a blink of an eye in front of me. Doesn’t matter how long you have been with a person, if you love them it is a devastating thing to happen.
Yes it hurts like hell. My world has been completely turned upside down.
Hi Polly,
Thought I would send a hello, and seeing how you are doing? Susie xxx
Thank you for your kind words.
Thank you for your kind words.
Hi Susie
Much the same to be honest , functioning but that’s about it . Thank you for asking 
How are you getting on ?
Paula xx
Hi Paula,
Yes I am still very much up and down, at times I seem to be ok, today wasn’t a good day as such, I ended up going to some grief counselling last week, I literally couldn’t stop crying from the moment I walked in to my Grief Beareavment Group, Hope your ok xx
Hi Rammie,
Sorry to hear about your husband, my partner was 57 too and he passed away suddenly beginning of February. Shocking!! ps I didn’t know if I had replied to your previous message, anyway thought I would say Hello. and thank you for your reply to my 1st message on here. Susie x
Hi there. I am not sure if you did. But it doesn’t matter. Just here to support each other. Through this awful time. How you coping ?
Not the greatest Rammie tbh, Still very Raw…. 
How are you doing? Susie. xx
First day back at work. Dreading going home to an empty house. 
Hope the grief counselling will
Help .
Not great at the minute. Our family holiday that I knew would be hard was a total disaster & as made me take so many steps backwards ended up coming home after 4 days 
xxx
So sorry to hear that. I don’t think I will ever go on holiday again. Even going to Sainsbury’s has so many triggers. End up crying and coming out. Sending hugs.
@Rammie @PollyjaneW
Hi pollyjane. I’m so sorry it was so hard, it was so brave of you to try.
I’m with you Rammie, I will never want to go on holiday ever again.
I didn’t for many, many years from the ages of 18 - 41. I was on my own.
Then I met my beautiful husband , and he took me on many beautiful holidays and breaks away before he became to ill to be able to.
They are all locked away in my broken heart
Hugs to you all 
How are you today rammie xx