Hi.
I lost my husband just over 2 months ago.
I find some days I can’t remember what it was like to have him around, his smell, his voice and it upsets me.
I talk about him lots especially to our kids.
I still have his clothes but the smell has faded and I haven’t found them much comfort since his death. I look at photos, his beautiful face shinning back but I have to try to remember his presence now.
I sometimes struggle with the finality, he’s gone forever and still I wish desperately for him to come back.
Life keeps on moving forward and I don’t feel like I’m moving with it, I’m just watching on the sidelines, trying to hold on to the life I had and loved.
The days seem to pass by but ……
But he keeps getting further away from me and my life .
People ask how I’m doing and I always say okay , because I am okay. But gosh, it’s exhausting maintaining okay and just well functioning!
Sorry for rambling, it’s been a tough week now the kids back in school. 
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It will be two months tomorrow since I lost my husband and I know how you are feeling., please don’t worry about rambling we are here to help each other through this awful lonely journey.
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Hi,
it’s also been a bit over 2 months for me since I lost my boyfriend. I can relate to what you say, it feels awful to start getting used to him not being here. I’ve found that writing my memories down helps with the fear of forgetting. I have a photo album and every once in a while I grab a picture and write what happened that day. I hope it can help you as well.
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Capy
What a brilliant idea thank you, nothing is harder than realising that our lives are ever moving on.
Thank you for such a truly good idea.
Xx