You don’t stop loving someone when they die. You just learn how to love them in silence, in the quiet moments, in the empty spaces, in the conversations you still have with them in your mind.
Some days you’re okay. Some days missing them hits you out of nowhere.
A song, a small memory, a moment you wish they were here for you.
You carry them with you in everything you do.
In the way you love, in the way you grieve, in the way your heart still aches for someone who should be here.
And the hardest part isn’t that they’re gone, it’s that the world kept going when yours fell apart.
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Yes I would agree with you, my partner is always in my heart and mind. Everywhere I go the memories are triggered by something. Anyone who hasn’t been down this road probably doesn’t get how intense it is. I’m still getting letters from HMRC, five months after he’s died because the solicitor isn’t dealing with things properly. It’s so upsetting, these people have no idea of the anguish they cause.
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Dear Norma
It does feel like people don’t care. It turned out I don’t own the solar panels on the roof, Stephen did. Even though they send me the bills and the house is mine they are still faffing about transferring them too me. Why don’t companies try and be a bit more helpful at times like this.
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I’m not even the executor of my partner’s estate as we weren’t married. I was the one who registered his death and I think HMRC just latch on to a name and send out intimidating letters. Hopefully it’s sorted now.
Dearest @Alone1
Thank you. I feel everything that you have so beautifully have written.
3 years, 6 months, 2 weeks for me.
It hurts as much as ever and I miss him more and more each day. Carry him with me everywhere I go, in everything I do.
Carrying grief, painting the mask on every single morning it’s so exhausting!! Grief exhaustion is something no one can possibly understand unless they are living it. It’s another level.
People expect, think we are “better” simply because time has gone by, and because we have carried on! Everyone I know thinks that because it’s over 3 years, I MUST be okay??? NO ONE ever asks me if I’m okay anymore.
I’m not okay, I never will be…
I read something a little while ago, I think you’ll resonate with it…
“ It may seem a long time ago to you, but it’s every single day for me”
Love, hugs and strength to you
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Hi Alone and every one of us on this lonley journey. 3 years in april.for me .I feel just the same .People don’t understand its not an illness there is no cure for this grief is ongoing and ive accepted it will.be with me always the love doasnt die how could it .Price we pay for love and what a price .T ime makes it slightly easier but the longing for that person is with us everyday . Love to all on our journey xx
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I can totally resonate with you 
. Take care x
Beautifully said.