Sorry for your loss, I lost my wife at 56, just over a year ago, the nightmare started and I am still in it. But slowly very slowly things start to get a bit better. I still miss here every day and end up in tears at least once a week it was several times per hour at the start.
Look after yourself and keep on hear counceling didn’t do it for me but you can come on here and vent your feelings. And you alway get a response.
Steve
My husband died 4 weeks ago. He had a massive stroke couldn’t speak or swallow but was awake staring. I sat by his bedside for 6 weeks 10 hours a day then they put him on end of life and I watched him die. My life is over. I’m so lonely we spent every minute together for 48 years
I’m so very sorry for your recent loss.
It’s so extremely raw for you at this time.
You are not alone on here. People always respond and try and cheer each other as much as we can because we all understand exactly what you are going through.
Unfortunately we can’t be there in person together to help with the actual loneliness.
I lost my partner in March last year suddenly and the first few months were horrendous but I have good days as well now so hopefully you will too.
Ask your family and friends for help because they won’t fully comprehend what you are going through until unfortunately it happens to them.
Keep posting on here it will help you..
Sending love 
I’m so sorry to hear that you have lost your husband in this devastating way.
Although grief is different for each of us, everyone here has an understanding of what you are going through and wants to offer any support they can.
Keep posting whenever you feel like and share whatever you want. Although it feels so lonely, you are not alone. Xxx
I’m so sorry, I understand what you’re going through. My partner died suddenly 3 and a half months ago. You’re still very early in your grief. Everyone here understands in a way that friends and family can’t, if they haven’t been down this path. Look after yourself and do what’s right for you. It’s a difficult journey full of sadness.
So so sorry for your loss. It’s the worse type of pain imaginable.
I can’t stop crying. I don’t want a life without him. He is my everything
It is such a difficult time and feeling like life has no meaning any more is ‘normal’ - grief however is different for us all. I don’t know if this will help. The total displacement and sudden change to life is very overwhelming and whilst I would never assume to know how you feel, I can connect to your feeling that life has lost its direction and purpose. You just need to try and navigate one day at a time. There are no rules to how you are meant to feel or what you do. Sending love and hugs x x
Maz9 just wondering how you are at the moment? Sending love x
I know exactly how you must feel.
My husband died in November after 54 years. I am lost cannot stop crying anxiety is awful. Even having a shower takes me all my effort to move. Friends who have been in that same place tell me it will get better on time. Ag the moment I cannot see that. sending you big hugs and love and me sympathy for your lose. 
I understand your feelings and although it’s awful it’s normal to feel like that. Grief is a relentless monster. It’s almost 5 months since my partner died suddenly. We’re both early on in our grief. I have to will myself to shower, wash my hair etc. No interest in clothes, just throw on what’s lying on the chair, can’t be bothered with make-up etc. I don’t see that changing anytime soon. I’m still crying most days. Mornings are really bad. We can only take one day at a time. I hope as time passes we can find some peace.
8 weeks today since I lost my man and the pain doesn’t get better. I feel out of control of my life
Hugs. Words are not really adequate. Take it one day at a time and just know you are not alone and what you feel is ‘normal’ whatever that is. Lots of love x
Nearly 10 weeks now and it feels worse if that’s possible. The loneliness is awful. I’ve never lived alone and even imagine the rest of my life without him. Saw someone today at health and well being and going back next week hopefully she can help me cope
Glad you can see someone.
It is Very early days so just have micro goals. You are probably ‘coping’ better than you realise. Just being on here is reaching out. Take care and lots of love x
It’s coming up to 4 months since my husband passed away. I was absolutely devastated and still am, my heart is broken.
Now that all paperwork / legal documents sorted I’m finding it even harder that he’s no longer here.
Each day is difficult, my initial positivity and motivation has taken a significant dip.
Just so lost at the moment as reality has hit, I’ve lost the love of my life. No going back 
I’m hoping I will begin to weather this new big wave in this awful grief storm.
Early days I’m told.
I know we are all facing this horrible horrible time guess I was just thinking out loud.
I’m so sorry, my loss is very new my husband died 4days ago. I cry every second. I know how you feel. I don’t want to be around anyone. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I took care of him and had a routine now I have nothing. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers
Ginnysuehol
I’m so sorry to read your husband passed easy only a few short days ago.
You must be in an absolute whirl I know I was when my husband passed.
Yes people tell you to keep eating, keep drinking and try to rest and sleep.
Easier said than done however I did follow that advice to the best of my ability at that time.
Everything is so very raw for you right now, let the tears flow, if you haven’t loved you can’t cry, let them flow, that too is the start of healing, slowly slowly slowly.
Today it is 7 months since my husband passed away. Not a good day.
The tears keep falling as yours will too.
Just give yourself time do what YOU want to do!!!
I’m thinking of you my love and sending you a big tight hug, take care of yourself you really must do.
Hi everyone. It’s been a while since I came on. It will be 3 years on the 16th October since my husband Kev passed away. Where have almost 3 years gone! Life is very different but you will swim again at some point. We have to love deeply to grieve deeply. The way I think about it is, I was so incredibly lucky to have met my Kev, we had ups and downs but loved each other unconditionally. How lucky was I to have had that. Yes it was cut short so many plans we had. Grief does not leave us but we learn to live with that pain and sometimes it’s a quiet pain, other times it catches me off guard and is so deep, I welcome the pain now as it’s a reminder of how blessed I was. Time is not a healer I miss my husband every single moment of the day. One day I truly hope he will be waiting for me. Until that day I have to live the best I can. It’s not easy by any means. Hugs to you all and I wish you the best on this journey none of us chose x
I’m so sorry, you must be feeling terrible. I remember my emotions being all over the place just after my partner died. The pain and emotional trauma is off the scale. I hope you have some support just now. I remember being totally overwhelmed by everything. I couldn’ t remember conversations with people and without my sister I would have fallen apart. It’s j one day at a time to get through. To be honest I still feel pretty much like that at eight months. The grief path is horrible but everyone on this site understands. Take care and post again when you feel able