Sending a very big hug.
Love,
Rose xx
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Sending love and hugs Ron xx
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Been thinking a lot today and thatās how I feel , just constantly sad . The initial shock and devastation has worn off after 6 months , i know sheās not coming back , but canāt seem to shake this constant feeling to the pit of my stomach of sadness .
I saw this the other day and it pretty much sums up how Iām feeling
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My daughter is gone and I take my son to uni on Saturday.
Iām so scared about next week and emptiness inside.
And then I hit 6 months at the end of the month.
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Iād say you are probably right on that, I donāt know who I was 7 months ago! I probably never will. Itās such a harsh reality to realise that you are no longer a wife/husband in the eyes of the law, you are now single, your not Jen & Dave or blah & blah anymore. Your just you and you donāt even know who āYOUā is
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Oh KtG itās like a perfect storm isnāt it. Widowhood & empty- nester ( and peri-menopause crap for me too)
Iām dreading next week but at the same time need some space. My youngest will be back after school, but she has just started a new job at the weekends so I have no idea how I am going to fill up all this spare time !
I do have some hobbies but many I have lost as we did them together.
Is going to be a huge adjustment so will need time I think xx
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Yes that resonates with me. I miss being cheerful, content, enthusiastic and positive about the future. And I really miss being understood and accepted for myself , warts and all.
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That just sums it up really. One day at a time is my mantra now. Xx
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You made it through another day. Thatās all we can focus on right now and look how well you done today. Love and strength xx
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So three nice things have happened since I last posted. I discovered a letter on the doorstep and itās the money from the in-service death insurance. A friend knocked on the door and she bought me a huge bouquet of sunflowers. And earlier today my son missed the Tesco delivery and I thought it had been lost and it was ready for him to go to uni - but just 10 minutes ago there was a knock on the door and they had brought it back despite the fact that they tried to deliver at 1 oāclock today. They had still brought it back and this evening at 8 oāclock.
All that sadness I was feeling it but three mini miracles that something!
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Every first we get through is a win. It may not feel like it but we are rebuilding our lives the best we know how to. And your welcome xx
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RoseGarden
Sorry to hear about your 6 month milestone. I hope you receive some counselling. I have had 2 sessions and it helps as does this group.
I will never get over the loss of my husband and itās nearly 5 months but it feels like it happened yesterday.
Hugs and support go out to you and everyone.
Thinking of you
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Thank you, that is kind of you.
Sending a big hug xx
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Dino13 my husband died 15 weekās on Sunday and I feel the same. I know heās not coming back but everyday i hope itās a nightmare i will wake up from. Somehow we carry on with life but unfortunately itās a different life and i fight everyday for my son 
but itās not easy and sometimes i donāt want to get up and carry on. Big hugs 
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JD8639 i agree with you we build a life with our love oneās and then just gone and then we have to carry on for our families and if you have children like i have my son at home. We have a different life we then have to rebuild it and make the best of it i think. My husband would want me to rebuild our life for our son and daughters. Even though some days i donāt know how to carry on. Big hugs
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Rosiejack i understand i lost my bestie to covid over 2 years ago and then my dad in April my darling husband in June and Iāve had cancer and one of my daughters and lost many more to cancer and itās a horrible illness 
itās hard to try and stay positive and keep fighting sending hugs to you
Rosiejack i had bladder cancer 8 years ago and I was one of the lucky oneās to survive and it donāt matter what you eat it can still happen and i went doctors 3 times and told them something was wrong and life is cruel and hard but we have to keep going and always go doctors because not everyone dies from cancer and Iām living proof of that. Big hugs
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So sorry Judy I have to disagree unless you can afford to go private,my wife died earlier than she should have from admitted nhs serious mistakes and poor care,I personally will never set foot in an nhs establishment again.
Unfortunately, I know what youāre talking about Ron. I am waiting for an inquest. And the medical examiner said that my darling husband should not have died the day he died. I have PTSD reliving that morning and trying to get them to do something.
But worse than that, a nurse came in and turned the oxygen down. I feel sick thinking about it.
I shake when I go near that hospital.
Rosiejack i had a pushing feeling in my stomach and then was losing some pink type of blood clot and then they were worried and then i had a camera and then found the mass. Then i had chemo and a 11 and half hour operation to remove my bladder and alot more. I have to stay positive because I was lucky and i know so many are not lovely xx