Hi @Liro
I live in Morecambe Lancashire. It was really hot during the week but it’s freezing now, got my dressing gown on. It’s either freezing or I’m comming down with something 
oh I love hot water bottles, I recently bought one of them extra long ones for the bed, for winter. I figured I’ll need some extra heat in the bed as won’t have Andrew to snuggle up to.
Hate this rollercoaster, feel like I’m not going to down, so that’s good 
xx
Oh @Katyh
I’m at the bottom of the rollercoaster at the moment. I’m really tearful tonight.
Its annoying because I’ve had a good day.
There’s just no reasoning with grief is there?
I’ve got one of the long hot water bottles my daughter bought us. We used to have it between us, and a normal one each as well!
This year I’m going to buy a heated throw. I’m definitely not going to be cold.
I’m in Kent, near Bluewater. Its been absolutely baking all week. Too hot to go out. Its just started to cool down and they’re saying overcast and showery tomorrow.
Typical I’m going to a birthday picnic for Rogers Great Granddaughter tomorrow😏
Big hugs x
You’ll be ok bless you, you know how this goes 
I bought I heated blanket in the sale after Christmas, Andrew moaned and said were not old and don’t need it haha. Im 37 and feel the cold more than I ever it. Anyway it’s in the loft he put it up there, god knows how I’ll get it out for the winter
Tomorrow should be nice, fingers crossed for the weather! Sending much love xx
Yes I know.
Just having a bad evening.
I’ll be fine tomorrow
Thankyou x x
I am really struggling today,i dont know how much longer i can hang on . I have never felt so lost and lonely. Xxx
So, the challenge I set myself was to use the conservatory. We had it specially built so that my daughter could be somewhere comfortable and in sight at all times if it was too cold to actually take her out into the garden. We also used to love to have our lunch in there when Katie was at her day centre. It has bi-fold doors on two sides so that Katie can be sheltered wherever needed. Today it was warm enough outside but I can’t actually manoeuvre her in her wheelchair across the lawn and I am not strong enough to help her out of it and into a garden chair, she is safer in her wheelchair. Anyway, I am going off on a tangent. I took her into the conservatory. We hadn’t opened the doors this year and when I tried I found that they are stuck fast. I pushed as hard as I could, locked and unlocked them, but still they wouldn’t move.
So, my challenge ended in failure. I was dreading being in there without him.
I will just have to set myself a new challenge for tomorrow. Xx
Hang in there @jevncute
Is there something you can distract yourself with ? Maybe the tv, a puzzle or reading a magazine ?
It’s getting late so maybe a good nights sleep will help.
Remember you aren’t alone and things will get easier - it’s so early days for you
Sending love and strength xxx
Oh @Willow112 Im sorry it didn’t quite work out for you today.
But the main thing is you set a goal and you gave it a bash.
That’s a definite win in my book
If we all set a goal for each day, then even if we don’t achieve it, the act of deciding on something to try is a goal achieved anyway.
Positives all around. ( apart from the obvious of course. )
Sending strength and hugs xx
Willow i failed in my goal too. I wanted to try and control the panic. Did so well all day then went to pieces about 6 . Shaking heart pounding . Threw my dinner away as could not eat. I’ve calmed down now and feel better but it was awful.
Hi @Woolly
You haven’t failed. You tired your best. Unfortunately at the moment you have little control over your emotions even with all the best intentions, you can only try the rest is completely out of your hands.
You have successfully decided that you want to try and control your panic. That’s really positive, you should be proud that you are trying to break free.
Remember each day is a new day, each day you’ll build up strength and new coping strategies, each day it’ll get a little easier. Rome wasn’t built in a day and there is no way on this earth that you can mend a broken heart without trails and tribulations (not that’ll it’ll even be mended, more like patched up )
Hang in there and keep being possive and trying your best. Someday soon you will be guiding other beareaved individuals.
Sending lots of love 
@Willow112
I owe you a huge ‘thank you’
At 9:00 this morning I’d decided I probably wouldn’t go to the birthday party.
At 10:00, I messaged my fried to say I would drive, meaning I would have to go.
I also told them I might have to leave early if my anxiety increased to an unmanageable level and asked if they were OK with that.
So… I went, I met some strangers and some old friends, I had some laughs and managed to stay for 5 hours.
Challenge complete.
It was tough, especially without a drink for courage!
I’m chuffed with myself…
You go, girl!
Well done, that took courage and I am so glad you managed to enjoy some of it!
I failed my challenge. But in the words of Scarlett O’ Hara in Gone With The Wind, “Tomorrow is another day”.
Xx
Excellent!!! Well done
Such a good idea @Willow112
By the time we have muddled our way through we will all be warrior princesses 
@Willow112
I dont think you did fail.
I think a piece of equipment failed, and that was beyond your control.
The fact is - you made all that effort, and you were determined … that’s absolutely failure!
Hugs
Katyh thank you for making me feel better about myself.
If we support each other we can cope better
lol, I knew what you meant, and thank you, Typo is my middle name! Xx
Ok - was feeling really crappy this morning - have started dreaming weird things so not sleeping very well at the moment - and starting to feel like I’m sliding down into a pit of despair and sadness.
So I have decided to try and do something about it like you guys on here - and my challenge today is to try not make myself feel worse !!
I have just gone for a short run with the dog. Feel knackered and unfit but I feel a bit better placed to deal with the day.
Thanks for helping me get going today folks.
I’m off to share some motivation with my kids now - and give them a huge hug as I love when so much. They are half their Dad after all
Good firvyou @roni52
I’m going to a birthday picnic for Roger’s Great Granddaughter, and I’m determined not to cry.
Thats my challenge fir today. Hope zi csn do it.
Big hugs 
x
Morning all. Thanks for your company and support.
Good to know what others are doing.
I’m trying to sit still and read the paper for a bit and control that impulse to sink into low mood. There’s this nagging at the back of my mind all the time that makes me feel jittery so I can’t relax. Wishing you success in what you try and achieve today
