My heart goes out to you and I want to give you a big hug It is not easy but I have found great comfort belonging to this forum if that is the right word . 
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I really know how you feel,I was with Malcolm for 39years.He died suddenly in January this year due to medical negligence.I feel totally lost without him,I think of him constantly even though I try hard to find something to distract me.
The pain is a physical ache and it is so hard to imagine the rest of my life without him.Iām feeling particularly sad today as we were due to go on a short holiday tomorrow and instead of packing our bags and loading the car Iām just sitting here feeling bewildered and heartbroken.
I really do understand how you feel and I am thinking of you in your grief.xx
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Oh Brocken so sorry for your loss that was far too early what a horrible disease it is it is so hard when we was together so young isnāt it as we have not known a life with out our love one beside us I feel your pain we have ti take each day as best we can they tell me
Night time again and no cuddles it awful strange how the body does let you sleep eventually last night was terrible so tired now hope we all can sleep xxx
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Thank you . It is an awful live we have now . Not the one I expected or wanted. I just actually live to die . I have found a lot of support on this site .we didnāt have any friends as it was enough just being us . Sorry for your loss xtake carex
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I wish we could mend each other somehow Broken.x
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Thank you . I feel my life is just over now . I still work . Only because I have bills to pay. But I think what is the point . Every day I want him more and more .sorry for your loss xtake care x
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Thank you . I just have to plod on each day hopeing it is my last . I sleep a little better now I get more than an hour but still not enough. And have no interest in eating . I just like my coffee and cigs . What I know arenāt good for me . But what the hell . I just want this life to be over . Hope you get some sleep xtake carex
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I feel so much like you do but Iām retired due to illness and I am 64 now.Love seems to drag.I cook,clean and shop but it is so different doing everything alone and for yourself.
I know how much you are hurting,the agony doesnāt seem to go away.
Do you have any tips that might help me Broken?x
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Yes it would be good if we could help each other . But unfortunatley the only one who can help me isnāt here anymore xtake carex
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I wish I had some tips to help everyone going through this . But sorry I havent . I canāt even help myself xtake care x
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Very true,the same for me,please take care.I care about you and everyone who is suffering cares too.
I just think of things canāt get any worse then one day we will feel a little better and stronger.x
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Morning I hope we get stronger donāt see it for a while itās Monday and I feel weak hope others are feeling a lot better feel like hiding away not speaking to any one not that I have many people to speak to never thought life would be so pointless sorry I should not be writing negative words down does not help any one take care xx
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@Rose45 - we canāt help what we feel - and if we canāt be honest here, that would be really sad. Please always share how you are doing - we all understand and we are all going through the same thing. For me, I am up and down today - getting ready to leave the mountains and go back to the UK. I have been sorting out stuff - cleaning, admin, etc, and have had a few breaks at work, which feel good. I looked out of the window and saw the sun is shining on the snow up in the valley, and it is beautiful. Suddenly, for a second, I feel confident, that in the end, I will be ok. Letās go forward together today, everyone, and stay close.
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Thank you Vancouver it must be a lovely sight seeing the mountains hard for you to come back to uk appreciate your kind words take care xxx
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Safe journey home Vancouver and love to all x
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Just to quote Nel,have a safe journey home Vancouver.x
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Many, many thanks, friends - just finishing up here - and yes, another load of laundry is on. Will be in touch again when I am back in Kent x
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Safe journey take care x
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Hi Rose - I have found a bereavement group. Itās very informal and more like a coffee morning, but all bereaved people. It lasts 2 hours once a week but some people just drop in and have a quick cuppa. Itās a very warm and friendly atmosphere. I mention it because I only found it by chance when I went on line and searched for Bereavement Groups local to where I live. The one I go to is in a church building but itās not religious more support and understanding, like here, from people who are grieving themselves. When you feel ready something like that might help, especially as you can go, or not depending how you feel on the day. If thereās something like that where you live it might help. Itās very informal and kind and you donāt have to stay any longer than you feel ok with. Just a thought. I send you all my best wishes xx
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Hi Nell glad you have found that group I have searched in my area but not found one it would help just to have a coffee and chat we others going through this
Take care x
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