@Annaessex  Dear Annaessex
My husband was a great cook and baker. A couple of years ago he made about five Christmas puddings. They were so full of rum I think they will last a lifetime. I still have two in the cupboard and can’t bear the thought of eating them. I took one to my sister’s last Christmas day, first one without my husband,  but because our meal was so late no one felt like eating it. I made a fuss and told her to keep it and not throw it away. I dare not ask what happened to it as I will be devastated if it went into the bin. Your post reminded me of the puddings.
I hope you enjoy opening your friends gift and have as good a day as you can.
Sending hugs xx
Wow your husband was certainly into bulk buying. You won’t need to buy more cinnamon or shampoo for years! I have lots of apples in the garden at the moment - cinnamon and apple is lovely! What a shame I can’t send you some.
I am no cook so the cinnamon will actually last forever. My husband liked spending. I will find useful homes for everything eventually then I can use the space for other things. Xx
I did think it must all take up a huge amount of space. It’s just difficult getting round to it I imagine. I haven’t got rid of anything yet.
We had a small extension built on the side which has the tumble dryer and a small freezer that also has shelves. This is where it is all stored. The stuff in the top shelf I can’t reach. There is everything in there. Creams, cleaning stuff, air freshener refills, washing pods, dishwasher tablets. The microwave is in there too. All this stuff used to be stored in the garage so it seemed a good move.
It sounds like you are well stocked up for years to come!
I think I am stocked for decades to come.
It must be saving you a lot of money - especially with prices going up! At least you know you have all this stuff in stock - so long as you can find it.
Or as long as I can reach it.
@Alir
Had a better day yesterday after my upset on Tuesday, but woke up this morning with absolutely no motivation or purpose, could easily have stayed in bed and I need to go to the building society. I used to be so focussed and got on with what needed to be done. I play tricks with my mind now by working out what can be left until tomorrow!  The past ‘me’ has vanished.
Someone yesterday used the phrase ‘stop the world I want to get off’, if only! Xx
Good morning Rosemary. I know that feeling of just can’t be bothered. And procrastination. At least better than yesterday. I managed some sleep in spurts last night so don’t feel too awful this morning. Busy day. Friend coming to clean. Someone coming to see if we can fit a bidet toilet in the bathroom then gardener coming this afternoon. No chance to sleep during the day.xx. Sandra
Good morning Sandra. It’s good you had more sleep albeit in spurts. Having some company today will be nice for you.
I am just getting ready to go to our local shops and more form filling at the building society. It’s so useful having one to go to and not having to do things over the telephone. They have been so helpful and guided me during this horrendous time,
Sending hugs, Rosemary x
Some companies can be a god send and others a nightmare.
@Rome18
I understand that feeling. I felt like that yesterday and I did virtually nothing all day.  To be honest, I feel like it a lot at the moment. I have decided to do a list each night with five things that I need to do for the next day and try my hardest to do them. They will only be mundane jobs, dusting, garden etc but I am going to try and get my list ticked each day. I think it’s the only way I can get myself back on track, so to speak.
I am pleased to hear yesterday was  a better day for you. I suppose we will never be the person that we once were, it is so sad. All we can do is try our best and take a day at a time.
I hope it goes well at the building society and your day gets a bit brighter.
Sending love. Alison xx
@Pudding
Good news that you managed to sleep a bit better last night, lets hope tonight is good as well.
Sounds like you will see a few people today and the day will be busy. That may help you to sleep as you have no chance of an afternoon snooze.
Hope you have a good day.
Alison xx
@Alir
Just back from my Building Society, all good, then M&S, not so good, saw new items which Richard would have loved. Started weeping and an assistant nearby came over and asked me if I was ok. She was so lovely it made me worse. What a nightmare we are living through
You are so right about making lists, something else I haven’t bothered doing. Will make one for tomorrow, really have to get a grip of myself.
Hope all going well with the bungalow.
Sending hugs, Rosemary x
My gardener not now coming until Tuesday. Had a survey today to see if I can refit my bathroom with a bidet toilet. Seems like no problem. See what the cost will be as I will get no financial help. The supervisor of my new care company ( who was the supervisor of my old care company) popped in to complete the paperwork and take my photo for their records. They may be able to give me a later slot. As I am not sleeping doesn’t make a lot of difference at the moment. My annuity got completed in 4 weeks must be a record. The last one went in for months. Now feel a lot more financially secure as first payment has arrived. All in all a good day. Xx. Sandra
So pleased, Sandra, a lot of very good positives today, especially the finance. If you have a later slot for your carer, it may help your sleeping pattern. Shame about the gardener but it’s not too long until Tuesday.
I feel you will sleep better tonight with your financial situation improved. Xx
I hope so but last night it seemed to coincide with the pain killers wearing off. I have to get up then or i am very stiff. Only need to be up for 10 -15 mins then I can go back to bed.
@Rome18
Hello Rosemary. I am pleased to hear all went well at the Building Society for you. What a shame though that you you were upset in M&S. At least someone kind cared and came to make sure you were o.k… It is so difficult as there are so many places and different things that are triggers for us.
Yesterday morning I was in the supermarket and I got into a conversation with two ladies who I didn’t know. It turned out that one of them had just lost her husband two months ago. I could see the sadness in her but was shocked to find out that she had been given no advice from the authorities as to claiming benefits or even the tell once service. I hope I helped her by giving her some  information. She was 81 and no one seems to care, it upset me.
I hope today has been a better day for you.
Sending love.
Alison x